IN LOVING MEMORY OF BABY RARA

HMM.. THOUGH BABY RARA IS ONLY A KITTEN BUT SHE'S THE LOVABLE CAT OF ALL. SIGH. THOUGH SHE CAN'T WALK BUT SHE MANAGE TO MELT OUR HEART. RARA WEAR DIAPERS CAUSE SHE CAN'T DIGEST PROPERLY. HOPING TO KEEP HER LONGER BUT WE FAILED. I AM VERY SAD BUT I JUST DON'T WANT TO SHOW. I HAVE A FEELING BAH.

MUMY AND ADIK2 CRIED. THEIR EYES WAS SWOLLEN. I CAN'T BEAR TO SEE THEM CRYING. I TRY TO TAHAN. WELL I AM A BIT EGO. LETS JUST SAY A HUGE-HUGE EGO. MY HOME FEEL SO SUNYI. REALLY. LIKE SERIOUSLY SUNYI. MUMMY GOT THE MIGRAINE ALSO.

FEEL SO SORRY FOR RARA THAT WE COULDN'T JAGA HER. I REGRET THAT I ALWAYS NEGLECT HER WITHOUT KNOWING THAT SHE'S GOING TOO SOON. SHE'S LIKE A SISTER TO US. SHE'S REALLY2 ADORABLE. OKAY I FEEL LIKE CRYING NOW.

I COULD NEVER FIND ANOTHER KITTEN JUST LIKE HER.
I KNOW I'M A BIT OVERREACTING AND A BIT EXAGGERATING BECAUSE SHE'S JUST A CAT. BUT FOR ME SHE'S NOT ONLY A CAT SHE'S SOMETHING SPECIAL TO US. MUMMY LOOKED AFTER HER, SHE'S THE BABY IN THE FAMILY. AND SO CALLED A SPOILED BRAT :D

AND I WONDER WHY LAST FEW DAYS THE TWO SIBLINGS OF RARA ALSO DIED. THAT WAS SO WEIRD. ITS LIKE SOMETHING HAPPENED IN A PURPOSE WAY. ERR I DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN. BUT I DON'T WANT TO THINK TOO MUCH ON IT.
ITS TIME TO LEARN TO LET GO. THAT'S THE CIRCLE OF LIFE.

I'M TOO EMOTIONAL FOR THIS.

ITS LIKE YOU KNOW, I AGREE WITH MUMMY ITS BETTER THAT YOU LOOK AFTER THE PET, THEY'LL UNDERSTAND YOU SO MUCH, YOU PAMPER THEM THEY WON'T GET YOU KNOW "NAIK KEPALA", THEY WILL SHOW YOU SOME LOVE INSTEAD.TO LOOK AFTER THE HUMAN AND PAMPER THEM ESPECIALLY LIVE IN THE SAME HOUSE THOUGH WE DIDN'T LIVE IN THE SAME ROOF BEFORE ITS DRIVING YOU INSANE. THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO THANK YOU THEY DON'T KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE YOU. BUT THEY STAB YOU FROM BEHIND INSTEAD. BUT DIFFERENT PERSON DIFFERENT THINGS WILL HAPPENED

THAT'S WHAT MUMMY TOLD ME BEFORE. SO SHE HAD ENOUGH FOR IT. I'M TALKING ABOUT THIS WOMAN. OH WHO ELSE. MY RECENT POST IS ALWAYS ABOUT THIS WOMAN WHOM I SHOULDN'T MENTION THE NAME TO THIS BLOG. BUT I ALREADY MENTION PLG.

FOR ME SHE'S TOO MUCH. WHO IS SHE TO BREAK US APART. YOU'RE NOT OUR BLOOD WHO ARE YOU KAN? NOTHING BAH. AFTER ALL YOU DID TO US, AND WHEN SOMETHING REMINDS ME ON YOU IT MAKES ME GO JIJIK, YOU LOOK SO DISGUSTING TO ME. DO YOU KNOW THAT. HUH.

OH CRAP PLEASE I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT HER. SHE'S A DISGUSTING WOMAN THAT I'VE EVER SEEN. CHEAPER THAN A SLUT CHEAPER THAN A WHORE. THAT'S WHAT SHE ARE. I SALUTE MUCH TO THE SLUT. THEY STILL NEED A RESPECT. BUT TO HER. I DON'T THINK SO.

YOU KNOW I AM THE ONE WHO ARE REALLY STUBBORN. TO ASK APOLOGIZE FROM YOU OH SORRY. I DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT THAT. IF YOU WANT TO DIE, YOU GO AND DIE. YOU DON'T SHOW US SOME RESPECT SO DO I.

YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE NEITHER DO I.

ENUF TALKING ABOUT HER.

I'M SIGNING OUT NOW

LOVE,
ZAII
11.32PM, 21/10

P/S: JUDEN, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO MY <3

JUST WANNA SAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY <3.>

DO YOU REMEMBER THIS THING THAT YOU GAVE ME? I THINK IT WAS 4YEARS AGO. HOW I LOVE THIS SO MUCH..

YOU'RE VERY SPECIAL TO ME.

MWAH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN. I LOVE YOU.

YOU ARE THE SOUL TO MY BODY
YOU GIVE ME SPIRIT TO LIVE
YOU GIVE ME AIR TO BREATHE

OH CRAP! I'M NOT POETIC AT ALL. GEESSH..

LOVE,
ZAII
12.47AM, 20/10/09

A LIL BIT OF LOVE

ITS FEW HOURS TO GO TO MY SAYANG'S BIRTHDAY :P HE'S 22ND YEARS OLD. A YEAR OLDER. SIGH. YEA AND STILL WE'RE HANGING IN THIS RELATIONSHIP.BUT ITS OKAY. WE'LL JUST GO WITH THE FLOW. SPEAKING A LIL BIT OF LOVE.

I SPOKE TO MY COLLEAGUE, JIDAH. IT STARTED WHEN I ALWAYS STARRED AT ME AND JUDEN'S PHOTO. I KEEP ON KISSING ON IT AND SAYS I MISS HIM SO MUCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THEN SHE SAID HOW COME YOU CAN MISS HIM WHEN YOU JUST MEET HIM A WHILE AGO. I SAID MAYBE ITS WHAT WE CALLED LOVE.

SHE SAYS SHE'S NEVER BEEN IN THIS SO CALLED "IN LOVE" SITUATION BEFORE. YEAH MAYBE SHE'S BEEN IN THE RELATIONSHIP. BUT MISSING SOMEONE SPECIAL EVEN A MINUTE, SHE NEVER FELT THIS WAY BEFORE, SHE CONFESSED ERR. THAT'S KINDA WEIRD. SHE ALWAYS ASK TO ME DOES TRUE LOVE EXIST OR NOT? I DEFINITELY ANSWER YES. I AGREE TRUE LOVE DOES EXIST BUT IT DOES NOT LAST FOREVER. I MEAN YEA NOTHING LAST FOREVER I REALLY BELIEVE IN THOSE. THIS WORLD ALSO INDA LAST FOREVER. AS GOD PROMISED US. T.T

YEA I'M GETTING SO EMO. ERR WHY WAS THAT. ITS JUST I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY CERTAIN PPL INDA TRUST IN LOVE. MAYBE SOMEHOW. THEY'LL KNOW.

P/S: SY, I WANT YOU. I NEED YOU.

LOVE,
ZAII,
@23.12PM 19/10/09

THE POSTPONED POST :P

SIGH. SITTING HERE ALL ALONE IN THIS BORING ROOM. PFFT. WHAT SHOULD I DO. WORKS GET SO HECTIC. SERIOUSLY THOUGH ITS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MONTH BUT. IDK WHY. GUESS I'M BORED WITH WORKING SUDAH. BUT WHAT TO DO. HAVE TO WORK FOR THE LOVE OF MY LIFE HUH.

CAN I SKIP THE TIME? WISH I HAVE THE "CLICK" REMOTE SO THAT I CAN CONTROL MY UNIVERSE. LOL. FEEL LIKE WANT TO SKIP THIS TIME. I WANNA SEE MY FUTURE. AS IF~~~ IF ONLY DPT BNR TAH..

WELL I'M TOTALLY BLANK RIGHT NOW. SIGH. AH ANYWAYS TODAY IS THE THIRD DAY ME AND JUDEN "MEMULAKAN HIDUP YG SEHAT" BUT STILL YA SMOKING. PFFT. SO DO I.. =.=''

ERR SPEAKING OF SEMOKING:D. I WONDER WHY AH NOWADAYS THE TEENAGE AND SOME OF THE OTHERS, IF THEY SMOKE, JUST FOR FUN. I MEAN THEY THOUGHT THEY WAS LIKE SO COOL WHICH IS SO NOT. IT'S TOTALLY PATHETIC. I KNOW I DO SMOKE ALSO BUT I'M NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON WHO TRY TO ATTRACT PPL AND TRYING TO TELL THE OTHERS "HI GUYS AKU BESIGUP" GO TO HELL. AKU ROKOK JUST FOR MY OWN SELF. NOTHING MUCH. SO I'M TRYING TO CORRECT YOU GUYS WHO THOUGHT THAT AKU SIGUP JUST FOR AN ATTENTION. ERR I'M NOT AN ATTENTION SEEKER ANYWAYS.

BACK IN 2008. I REMEMBER I WENT SMOKING DI TANGGA NETCOM, AS USUAL AFTER PLAY CS THEN WE ROKOK. I BRING THIS BITCHFROMNOWHERETOBESEEN WHICH I TOTALLY REGRET. I SMOKE LAH. THEN SHE'S STARRING AT ME AND SAYS EH DAH ASAP MU KLUAR DARI IDUNG. GOD DAMN IT. I WAS SO EMBARRASSED AT THAT TIME. I MEAN C'MON MAN AKU BUKAN MCM KAU.. AKU ROKOK FOR LIFE NOT TRYING TO TELL THE OTHERS "OH I'M COOL BECAUSE I SMOKE" SORRY. TO THOSE WHO SMOKE JUST FOR THIS PIECE OF CRAP YOU BETTER QUIT YOU JUST WASTE YOUR FUCKING MONEY TO BUY CIGAR AND ITS NOT WORTH IT AT ALL. SORRY I'M NOT TRYING TO BE MEAN. OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE THE WORLD. YOU GOT PLENTY TIMES TO DO SOMETHING BETTER THAN THIS.

AND I REMEMBER BACK IN THE FIRST DAY OF RAYA. WITH ALL HER HEART AND SAY IT LOUDLY AND PROUDLY AKU MAU SIGUP EH.. ERR.. THAT SO NOT COOL BIATCH. YOU GO TO HELL. YOU ARE TOTALLY INSANE.

AKU MENTAL.

BAH BAH I'M OFF TO TUTONG NOW.

I'LL SAMBUNG AGAIN LATER.

SIGNING OUT AT 6.36PM.ZAII

WELL SUPPOSE I POST THIS FEW DAYS AGO. HAHA. I GOT NO TIME. ADA PLG. ITS JUST I FORGET. SIGH.

ITS 2.25AM 18/10/09 JUST GOT BACK HOME FROM JUDEN'S PLACE. CELEBRATING LAST RAYA. AWESOME, BUT I KEEP ON WHINING. IDK WHY.
MAYBE I'M TOO EXHAUSTED. HAVEN'T GOT ENOUGH SLEEP THESE FEW DAYS. SIGH.

ERR, I WAS THINKING OF JOINING A BOXING CLASS. DIMANA ADA? TRYING TO BE A BIT DEFENSIVE HUH. I'M SERIOUS BABY. REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO IT. I HEARD FITNESS ZONE HAS THE CLASS FOR "BODY COMBAT". SOUNDS SO INTERESTING. BET IT IS FUN. I WANNA TRY.

IM OFF NOW.

AGAIN, SUPPOSE I POST THIS LAST NIGHT BUT. ERR. THE CONNECTION WAS DOWN. SO YEA.. I HAVE TO POSTPONED AGAIN. HEHE.

P/S: BABY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. XOXO

LOVE,
ZAII
18/10 20.45PM