AKU MENTAL TODAY. LIKE TO THE MAX. THE MAN BITCH OR THE DICK HIT MY TEMPER TO THE MAXIMUM POINT. SO MY ADVISE TO HIM WOULD BE. IF YOU THINK I DIDN'T WORK MY ASS OFF. AND IF YOU THINK I WORK VERY SLOW LIKE A SNAIL. SO MOVE ON. FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN ME. WHEN YOU INTERVIEW THEM ASK THEM TO HAVE A 100M MARATHON, THE ONE WHO WIN WILL GET THE JOB. 

DON'T YOU KNOW HOW IS IT FEELS LIKE WHEN ALL THE ROCKS ARE FALLING ON YOU. THAT'S WHAT YOU DID TO ME. SORRY BUT I CURSE YOU HOPE YOU ARE MUCH MUCH MORE STRESS-ER ARAH YOUR NEW WORK. I REALLY-REALLY PRAY FOR THAT. 

AKU TAU. AKU MEMANG JAHAT. YOU GIVE ME A SHIT I GIVE YOU A BULLSHIT. YOU WANNA PLAY WITH ME, I'LL PLAY WITH YOU TOO. WHAT? YOU'RE MEAN. OKAY I CAN BE MORE MEANER THAN YOU. SO BACK OFF! 

I CAN ACCEPT WHAT YOU'VE SAID TO ME, I KNOW I WOULD NOT TAKE IT SERIOUSLY. ITS JUST THAT I THINK YOU HAVE NO FUCKING BRAIN TO THINK AND NO FUCKING EYES TO SEE. YOU HAVE 2PAIRS OF EYES AND STILL YOU CANNOT SEE WHO DO THEIR WORK AND WHO DON'T. 

OH LETS JUST SAY.. GET AN EYE JOB YOU MOFO! 


I HATE IT WHEN I FEEL UNAPPRECIATED, SERIOUSLY I DO. YOU SAY SOMETHING BAD TO ME I DON'T MIND. BUT WHEN YOU DIDN'T APPRECIATE ME. ONE WORD. GOODBYE. *SNAP 


I HOPE YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH YOUR NEW WORK NANTI SAME LIKE I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I WISH I COULD HIRE SOMEONE WHO HAVE THE MURDERING LICENSE SO THAT I COULD KILL YOU.


BACK OFF AND FUCK YOU.


I FUCKING HATE YOU. 




SINCERELY,
YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE CLERK.

 

DEAR,

I ADMIT THAT I REALLY MISS YOU, I KNOW MY EGO HOLD ME BACK NOT TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. ITS BEEN FOUR YEARS SINCE YOU LEFT. AND I NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN. THOSE PEAK TIMES, I FELT VERY FRAGILE AND INSECURE.


LOSING YOU IS LIKE LOSING SOMETHING PRECIOUS IN YOUR LIFE. YOU USED TO BE MY SUPERMAN. BUT WHY IS IT NOW YOU TURNED TO VILLAINS. 


TO KNOW THAT YOU STILL REMEMBER MY FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS I FEEL SO GLAD, AT LEAST AT HEART I KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME. 


I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW, I'M OKAY HERE WITHOUT YOU THOUGH I MISS YOU. 

YOU USED TO BE MY SAVIOR. WHY NOW YOU TEAR MY HEART INTO PIECES. 


BECAUSE OF YOU, MY WORST FEAR IS LOSING SOMEONE ELSE AGAIN. YOU LEAVE ME IN VAIN.

IT HURTS ME SO MUCH, WHEN YOU WALKED AWAY. I'M MAD BUT THERE'S NOTHING ELSE I CAN SAY. 


I PRETEND MY SELF TO BE STRONG WHEN I'M NOT.  I SAY I HATE YOU WHEN I DIDN'T MEAN IT AT ALL.


I'M SORRY DADDY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT NOTHING CAN CHANGE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

LOVE,
YOUR DAUGHTER.

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone that I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

 

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is 

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking of you
I'll never go a day without my mama

Yes you are

song for mama-boyz II men. love you mama.

HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

LOVE,

ZAII

 

not a productive day.

I'm bored. Sitting here watching the others gambling. Not a real gambling. Aku pun main big two.

well, my plan doesn't work tadi. pasal aku kan buat composition arah aku punya leave application form. cuz the dick ckp bisai2 rah ku.

So, i don't play sarcastic tadi.

But 1 thing that made me go insane tadi cause, all of a sudden the dick ask me to volunteer for the golf something. mental ku. I wear baju kurung. And i think i stinks the whole day.

So, i don't do my job very well. Buset.

Anyhoos, queen of my heart's birthday is coming up soon. Happy birthday mama.

love you. Though we're not that close like before. But i will always love u.

So here's the photo what we've been doing since tadi. 

I know. its like we had a real gambling haha. well, its been a while since aku cemani. guess kami berapa urang saja. emm. 5 person altogether. hehe. i found this picture is cool. i think i can make a poster for this photo. hehe. 

well actually we're not doing something productive pulang. but hey, why not. its once in a while saja kami cemani i guess =.=" 

p/s saya sayang sahabat-sahabat handai ku sekalian. :D
 

LOVE,
ZAII

MY BOSSES ARE DICK*SMIRK*

HI

TADI AKU TEXT SAMA FIFFI. MY BOSS(THE BITCH) YELLING AT THEM AKU APPLY CUTI WITH REASON "PERSONAL MATTER" I DON'T FEEL MAD AT ALL. ESUK AKU BUAT KARANGAN DI LEAVE APPLICATION KU OKEH! SCREW YOUR BRAIN AND YOUR THOUGHTS. 

OH, THIS LYRICS KAN NGAM FOR HER;

"I HATE MY JOB, MY BOSS IS A DICK,
I DON'T GET PAID NEARLY ENOUGH, 
TO PUT UP ALL HER SHIT" 

BOSS, YOU'RE A PREGNANT WOMAN. YOU SHOULD BE CAREFUL ENOUGH SAYING THINGS. IF PEOPLE HATE YOU THEY'LL SWEAR YOU FROM HEAD TO TOE. MAYBE EVEN THE BABY INSIDE OF YOUR "PERANAKAN" (INDA KU TAU APA ENGLISHNYA WAH)!!

I SOUNDS MAD. YES I AM. TRYING TO BE COOL. BUT HEY. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO HAVE CUTI BILA-BILA MASA KU MAU.

HAVING LUNCH TOGETHER JADI ISSUE? GAWD. I'M NOT IN A SCHOOL ANYMORE. YOU DON'T WANNA BE MY TEACHER, I TELL YOU. 


I WONDER WHY SOME PEOPLE WANTS TO KISS DRNG PUNYA ASS. SIUK KAH JADI ASS KISSER ANE? 


POKOKNYA ALL MY BOSS IS A DICK. WELL SOME OF EM PLG.


SOON IT'LL BE ANOTHER DICK ARAH KAMI. OH MY WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE KAMI PUNYA SUPERVISOR. 


I'M TRYING TO LOVE MY JOB. BUT IT SEEMS THAT INDA KU DAPAT BAH. I ONLY LOVE THE PEOPLE YG ADA DISANA. WHICH IS NOT MY BOSS.


I'M SICK AND TIRED OF MY JOB. HANDLING ONE ISSUE TO ANOTHER. THAT'S WHAT I HATE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU WORK HARD AND THE OTHERS GOT CREDIT. IT REALLY SUCKS ME OUT. 


SO AS FIFFI SAID, IN CONCLUSION I WON'T BE THAT HARDWORKING ANYMORE. BUT YET STILL I CAN'T KEEP MY PROMISE. I DON'T KNOW WHY. =.="


BAH. UDAH TAH.


P/S AKU MENTAL.


LOVE,
ZAII

i heart you. and i always do.

TIME AFTER TIME, DAY BY DAY I SEE YOU CHANGING AND FADING AWAY. I CLOSED MY EYES AND I SHUT MY MOUTH. WHY NOW? WHY? YOU REALIZED THAT ME TOO FADING AWAY FROM YOU. WAS IT ME THE ONE WHO'S AVOIDING YOU? 

SINCE WHEN WE TALK ABOUT FEELINGS? YOU HURT ME. I IGNORE. AS IF THAT NOTHING HAPPENED BEFORE. BECAUSE I REMEMBER THAT WE ARE FRIENDS FOREVER.


THE TIME I WASTED. I COULD DO NOTHING MUCH BUT DISAPPOINTED. SIGH.

WHY NOW, YOU REALIZED THAT WE'RE NOT THAT CLOSE ANYMORE. 


I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOU. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?

THOSE TIMES THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH. I FEEL LIKE NOTHING BUT WASTED. 
THOSE TIMES THAT WE SHARE THE LAUGHTER AND TEARS BEFORE HAS TURNED INTO ASHES.

THE PROMISES WE'VE MADE HAD BROKEN INTO PIECES. WHERE'S THE MEANING OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP? WHY IS IT TURNED INTO HATRED?

YOU. THE NAUGHTIEST, THE CRAZIEST, THE NOISIEST? WHERE IS IT GONE? 
I CAN'T SEE YOU ANYMORE. THE ONLY THING THAT I CAN SEE IS THE SILENT YOU. THE MELLOW YOU.THE SORROW YOU. WHERE'S THE HAPPINESS? WHERE'S THE LAUGHTER? I SEE NOTHING. I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE PUTS A BLINDFOLD ON ME AND I HARDLY CAN SEE YOU. I HARDLY RECOGNIZE YOU. 

PEOPLE AROUND YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU. ITS JUST THAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU FELT DISAPPOINTED THE SAME WAY AS I DO. AND WE DON'T WANT YOU TO DROWN INTO THE "DEEP OCEAN" BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU. DON'T BLAME ON ANYONE ELSE CAUSE I BELIEVE ITS YOU.

SORRY.I LOVE YOU. AND YES I ALWAYS DO.

LOVE,
ZAII

confession part II :D

I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. I THANK GOD THAT I FOUND THIS GUY. HE CAN UNDERSTAND ME FOR WHO I AM. I THANK GOD HE'S NOT THE KING CONTROL. 


FOR BETTER OR WORSE I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HIM. NO MATTER HOW HARSH WE ARE. \m/ 

I LOVE THIS GUY. HE NEVER SAY NO. WHEN I SAY I WANNA BE WITH MY FRIENDS. HE NEVER SAY NO TO ME ACCEPT IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG THAT CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE THING. 


THIS GUY TEACH ME HOW TO BE STRONG. THIS GUY DON'T WANNA LET ME DOWN. HE ALWAYS FIND A THOUSAND WAY TO MAKE ME SMILE. (OR MAYBE I'M THE CLOWN =.=")


I LOVE YOU BABY, AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.


THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ME. AND THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING ME. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 


LOVE,
ZAII