hi people people!!!:D

its been two weeks i haven't update my blog. i've been busy with working all the time. sigh. but i'm in love with my job hehe:D. aah.. finally i can rest this weekend:D.

anyways,

happy birthday 20th birthday to alai ashraf:D

and my boyfriend's parents are going to perfom the haj today. but i didn't have a chance to send them to the airport. sad.sad.sad

it touched my heart last night when his mother hug me. and told me to look after juden.

haha. sayang the power is in my hand now:D

anyways i'm so gonna confess about my job. at first week it was a complete tiring and i got a fever. but after while its fun:D except for the tiredness! and now i know how my parents and the others feel of working hard to search for money.

monday to friday. almost everyday i have to take overtime because there's load i mean LOAD of works to do.

thats all people:D

interview.interview.interview

hi there, its been awhile since i've blogging i just don't have much time to surf the net. sigh sigh sigh.

owh anyhoos, i just had my written test on baiduri bank last wednesday and at 5pm they called me for an interview on friday and then they called me again for the second interview again on the next day. and i'm in dilemma right now. banar people. before the inteview DST called me and ask me to come for the interview. and i am totally confuse which job will i choose. well i just depend it on mumy.i just let her choose. maybe.*deep sigh.

yesteday, my boyfriend brought me to pantai jerudong to watch sunset. teehee. it was so relaxed that i can forget everything that keep on messing up with my mind. oh god help me. :S

at night we had a dinner at liyana in batu besurat with his family because his family want to celebrate his belated birthday. and i am super full. after that we have no idea where to go so we went pusing gadong manatau our friends ada sana. =.='' actually my boyfriend wants to go to the mall but then its raining and my badan sudah itchy cause kana ujan masa di batu besurat. sigh. sorry sy.

then went to komunis. my boyfriend bought a secondhand serenade cd then went to qlap bought pearl milk tea from easy way. :D

then went home so early because i have interview today at 10am. sigh. well all i can say is i'm nervous :S

my boyfriend went home around 1am hehe:D

i'm out now i have to get ready for interview. wish me luck:D


with love,
zaii

the birthday

ah finally dapat update:D though its belated. teehee.

on the 20th October i would like to greet happy 21st birthday to my love and happy 18th birthday to alai mizzan. sorry because lambat update. hee.

letme recall what happened on monday. me and the boyfriend had a dinner at Aminah Arif since he was craving for his all time favourite menu Ambuyat.

after that we made a surprise birthday cake for sayang and alai mizzan and FYI it was last minute plan. and i didn't know what to do because at that time i was out of prepaid and thats makin' me worried. banar.. its a seriousshit :D

after dinner we went to his home then i forced my boyfriend to go to my grandparents home since we got nothing to do at his home. sudah sampai bibie lagi nada. then about half an hour she came. then~~~

this is the cake hehe. last minute plan cake. bibie bought this cake from le apple and its super yummy. thanx bibie for the cake.

bibie, alai, sayang, adib

bibie, alai, sayang and me

though we didn't celebrate the birthday ramai2 but still its fun. we did play the cake fight and the amah pun kana. haha.

sayang,

happy 21st birthday to you

may Allah bless you with longevity

i love you so much

sorry didn't have present for you but for sure i'll give you soon okay.

i love you sayang.

Alai mijjan,

happ 18th birthday

semoga panjang umur di murah kan rejeqi ya mas:D

bh man go and buy you cigar its LEGAL now.

ilabyouh man!

bh people thats all.

with love,

zaii

hi people,,

i don't feel like talking about my day today. but overall it was tiring again. because had makan2 lagi at my grandparents homey. but unfortunately i'm super full sudah so i just eat something light.

i don't know what has gotten into me. i feel like something has missing in my life.*deep sigh
thanks to the boyfriend who always be there for me. i love you for making me feel better.*hugs

owh anyways his birthday is coming up soon on the 20th and i'm still thinking what to do on his birthday. well ada plg. just want to keep it hush-hush dulu. and inda tau jadi or not hehe.

baby~~ you're getting older. hehe. but no matter what i will always love you. :D

i miss you love. hee. though we've just met.

i love you you and you


with love,
zaii

hi people..

yesterday was a complete tiring. at 3pm i went to baiduri bank in kiarong branch to send my letter of application. then went home. i got a headache that i can't help it. maybe pasal aku hungry kali :D then went to babu's crib kan ambil hp yayai. because yayai cannot live with her hp because her hp is her soul or probably her life. hehe.

then i ate home made chicken rice. hehe. paning ilang sikit. teehee. =.='' then went home. at 6pm get ready and went to the boyfriend's crib then went to ripin's house. after that went to abg ami's house because my cousin named suzree kana risik. i'm happy for you cousin. teehee.

then went to ibu lagi. and my stomach mcm kan explode udah makan bnyk hehe.


went backk home around 12 hehe. atleast i'm not going anywhere inda betantu :D

udah di rumah;
-insomnia strikes
-bored strikes

sigh.


with love,
zaii

al-fatihah to aunt faridah(ben) who just passed away this afternoon.

around 7pm i just got back home from auntie edah's place.

i don't really have a mood to blog right now. i'm exhausted.

i don't really have a mood right now since i'm in this situation that i don't reallyy wanna talk about it.

heard lots and lots of badnews in these few days. sigh.

i have no idea what to write on.:D


with love,
zaii

raya celebration:D

its been a while since i've blogging:D been really tired with raya celebration. well it didn't went so good. but for sure its a blast. lets just summarise my raya celebration story :D

first day;
went to babahlong's grave then for sure went to lambak at my grandparent's homey. i can say there's loads of food to eat. then went to auntie edah's place at jerudong where i have a chance to eat the cup cakes from kitchen of jasmine. then went to nini tua at rimba kembar. then went home. at night the boyfriend came and went beraya di lambak then went to qilah's homey at rimba kembar again.

second day;
let me recall.first went to nini uda's place di somewhere-i-can't-remember-the-place. dakat manggis kali. i eat a lot bah. then went to nini joyah's place(the boyfriend's grandmother) at lambak kanan then went home to lambak. at night me and bibi went to the boyfriend's place where the mother cooked the home made mee laksa it was super-delicious-that-i-don't-want-to-stop-eating-it but my stomach udah full with foods and drinks. then ripin(the boyfriend's friend) came. after that we went to i-don't-know-who di mentiri kawan a friend of mine

third day;
went to ibu's place at serusop. the food i can say it was awesome. i mean it was totally awesome. then went to abang chai's place at seri lambak. lagi tia. super delicious but aku full udah so i eat light food saja. di sana ada sushi from excapade, kebab, mini burger from ideal, cup cakes from kitchen of jasmine, and not to forget nini dayang's punya makanan well known as my nini. hehe.then went to uncle taib's place di lambk then went to jerudong to anti abam's place but then nada urg and FYI it was raining and guruh and temparik i was so scared. on the third day of raya the boyfriend went to kaybee. sad:S because aku mau ikut. then at night he pick me up and went to ripin and the girlfriend open house.

fourth day;
mumy went to kaybee and the boyfriend went to tutong. i was all alone at home until 8pm the boyfriend came and pick me up went to bungsu's place(the boyfriend's friend) then went to wafi's place again nada urangnya then went to mall to have a dinner because i haven't eat anything yet. then played cs haha. so much of raya-ing.

fifth day;
didn't go anywhere.

sixth day;
first went to kampong ayer to baji's place, then rumah jirul then din's then fadil's place then midah's place.

seventh;
mariatul place saja haha.

bh thats all for now.

with love,
zaii

hari raya

selamat hari raya to muslimin muslimat.

deep sigh. selamat hari raya to all. once again raya with incomplete family :S

al-fatihah to babahlong.

al-fatihah to tua bagol

al fatihah to nini babu

al fatihah to nini hussein(the boyfriend's late grandfather/my cousin)

al-fatihah to nini moyang

al-fatihah to muslimin.

semoga roh mereka di cucuri rahmat.

hari raya. i'm so going to miss my boyfriend so much. i guess we don't meet in these few days. sad. sad. sad. :S

to my friends selamat hari raya. sorry if did something wrong.

and bibi. sorry for all my wrongdoing.

bah people again selamat hari raya.


with love,
zaii

i didn't blog yesterday because i was so damn exhausted. i spent a day with the boyfriend from 12midnight of 29th sept to 1am of 30th sept. hehe. xcept for pagi til pm saja. thanx sy. i love you. i wake up so early i mean ot that really early i woke up around 11.30am and i slept at 6.30am 5 hours sleep. sigh.

at 3pm we as in me and the boyfriend went jalan-jalan. hehe. we break our fast at kaka restaurant. mumy brought us there. i didn't get any present from mumy on my birthday. the boyfriend gave me rose and a mug. i haven't took a picture of the mug yet. it look so cute. hehe. i don't have mood to blog today. anyways i'm at the boyfriend crib right now. teehee.


happy birthday to the boyfriend's sister asheey.


hehe. i was trying to hide my right eye arah photo of me and the boyfriend but still nampak.






with love,
zaii

birthday girl

hi people. its 29th of september. and happy birthday to me :D i'm 19 now. i'm getting old. :S


right at 12midnight tadi the boyfriend and friends gave me surprise. i mean they gave me cake. and i am so SURPRISED. haha thanks boo and friend. we celebrated my birthday at the boyfriend's crib.

tada.. this is my birthday cake. i was craving for this cake the first time we went to lof but mumy didn't want to buy it for me because she said that aku puas udah celebrate evrsince i was a kid.

thanks friends for collecting money for this cake. i lobyouh guys.

owh and by the way thanks to dean and nesa for giving the chocolate and a bottle of mentos.
hehe. i love you.

not to forget to those who greet me thank you so much guys. thank you. thank you.

awh also to jirul~~ thanks for the watch. teehee.


fadil, c'mon lets have some fun. what past is past. don't think about it. you have us.


ok i'll blog again tomorrow.

sayang,

thanks for everything.

sorry for making you whine

thinking how to make surprises for me.

this surprised is more than enough for me.

sorry again to trouble you.


with love,
zaii

i'm so in dilemma right now. frustrated that is.

people keep on judging me and telling fake stories to other. you-know-who-you-are. do you get present for it. i want one too. i wanna get present by telling people all the fake stories. c'mon people give them a round of applause. i'm sure i am going to pay your debt. no worries.and you after 7years of friendship. still you keep on hurting me. all i do is sabar. i'm sure i'm going to explode like a pearl habour.


my day? i woke up and i can hardly open my eyes. i mean my right eye. then straightly i looked into the mirror and my eye was all red until now. i feel like crying bah. sakit plus padih. sigh then the boyfriend came and pick me up at 3.30pm and we're going to gadong because sam wanted to go the saloon to get a haircut.mohawk that is. hehe. and we've been searching anywhere for the saloon and its all fully booked. until we went sebarang mall till ada this abandoned saloon what do we called that. let me think. hmm. idk. hehe. teehee. then we went rush home because we want to break our fast at pantai serasa so we can see i mean so i can watch sunset. sadly kami inda sampat because kami bali food udah like almost 6. sad.sad.sad. apakan. bengang. i was acting like there's no sunset lagi. hehe. i mean its been a while i didn't watch sunset we went to pantai but at night saja all i see i moon. :P


then at pantai serasa we played bunga api. it was siuk. alai ashraf, if you were there tadi i can't imagine how siuk tadi and ngam lagi if you and alai betamu. i'm sure we're gonna laugh. haha. :D


oh anyways one of my friend fadul, had an accident last night, motor and car accident and the friend of mine is riding the motor. the motor was deadly ancur. but thank god he's fine. just a scratch on his back and his neck keselahau. funny when i heard the story everyone get panicked like c alai ashrap said padul accident gila trok motornya masuk bwah kereta. and ko jua sam. you make me went so panicked. all i thought was a really bad accident i mean not just me but all of us. my mind keep on thinking all the negative stuff. sheesh~~ sekali he was fine. sam and alai you should've tell us a complete story. so we don't get panic.

good night people


with love,
zaii

god help me with this sleepless night.

i can't stand anymore with the insomnia that i've been suffering for all this while.



man, i just browsing through internet or lets just say i'm googling just now. and i found out that i'm suffering from insomnia, the other meaning from insomnia is can't-remember-shit. naaahh.. its just that i can't sleep all night and that makes me depressed. i need rest seriously i do :S

again my day was started so lame. my hp rosak like i can't see anything on the screen. pfft. and i can't sleep all night and i sleep at the couch on the tv room. when i get up at 8am mumy was like keep on marah-ing me cause i sleep dbwh. i can't sleep in my room it makes me whine though i force my self to close my eyes i still end up sleeping subuh. and sometimes it makes me wna scream my lungs out of it. hfft. *deep sigh


plus i went so mental today because when i went to the tailor's shop not far from my house because i want to take my baju raya sekali when i came there she haven't done it yet alum bejahit i was like shocked that baju i am going to wear on my first day of raya sekali i said can you make it before raya then she agreed relief la sikit then i was going to pay the deposit the total price was $65 then i wanted to give her deposit about $35 she said that the total price was $95 again i shocked. mental ku mental. inda ku jadi putung baju sana. baee bah~~~


where on earth i'm going to search for the tailor's shop yg sanggup lagi putung. i feel like screaming right now. :S

bh people thats all

whine

*deep sigh

i just got back from from the boyfriend's crib. its like 1am udah. and oh my he's going to school tomorrow. but hey, i have a new friend and she's from pte too and i've never seen her before well she's my junior but you-know-me i don't treat my junior as my-junior get me? we all are the same and we all are schoolmates. teehee. oh forget to say her name is izah. she's a nice girl. well, the boyfriend's mumy ask me to layan her but i was like oh-i'm-so-shy. haha. but the boyfriend keep on forcing me. at last we talked but hey nice to know you and nice to talk with you. i have a great time with you girll


oh my day started so lame =.='' i woke at 11.30 because the boyfriend texted me that he have an extraclass about web design. i was like okay i'll get enough sleep since ya dtg ahir :D but~~ at 12am he texted me again and ask me to get ready because he's going to pick me up because the father ask him to send atoz to the workshop i was like o.O''. awh.. man do you know what it means. it means that i didn't have enough sleep and i whine. sheeshh~~ that when he arrived saya belum siap. and he was like lakas tah c din tunggu udah. and here it goes i whine again. we rushed to his crib and i don't find c din there. again!!! i whine!!! waiting for alai lagi i whine!! then we went to the workshop after that we don't have any idea to go where to kill our time so we plan to go to alai mizan's place at kiarong and FYI the day was so DAMN HOT!! and man, otw to kiarong it was jammed. and the boyfriend's car temperature was so hot and we don't feel the aircond ba~~ then kami abis bank we went to hospital kan rehat kan kereta there!! haha. we sat arah out patient and i was like sleepy. then at 3 baru kami balik then send them home.


the boyfriend had his sungkai at my crib. after sungkai here it goes again i whine and i don't know why on earth that i whine. i feel like stressed out and everything that the boyfriend did i'll get angry. sorry love.

okay okay lets just put it this way; i whine all day. teehee.


god, please help me to sleep earlier. i need some rest!!i had enough of waking up late. i sound like shit. haha.


bah bah people i'm off.


with love,
zaii

random

just finished watching the match between manchester and chelsea. they draw!!! sheeshh~~ but nevermind. hehe. think positive!! i guess manchester is getting bored because the hold the trophy 2years straight heheh. so they give chance to other team to have it!! thats what my opinion with the boyfriend :D


i woke up at 230pm today. sheeshh.. i slept at 5am man. idk what happened to my eyes. i don't feel like sleeping at night. this is a seriousshit. i'm afraid during raya i didn't get much sleep. i'm trying real hard to sleep earlier though i went upstairs at 12 but still i end up sleeping at 4-ish all night in bed? what do you think? and everyday i woke up in the afternoon and i endup getting headache. gawd!!


back, the boyfriend came over to my house at 430pm because he got lots of things to do at home. as usual hari raya is coming and of course he'll do this and that. every year he must complained at me because his work is so tiring. tadi pun he end up so weak and exhausted.


we stayed at home all night. we played bunga api. anyways idk why i hated badil so much it sounds like an earthquake i guess. i'm so scared with the sounds it makes me scream and makes my heart beating so fast. anyways i hate some badil saja like badil macis, colour flower and what do we called that air bomb. fuck it makes my heart go sheesh. you know what i'm saying.


talking about badil, last night at pantai jerudong alai mizan pasang this badil macis and throw it arah batu2 can you imagine how was the sound? i was like screaming my lungs out of it. man, seriously i feel like crying i hate badil so much ever since i was a kid, i still can remember everyone was so excited to play the badil and i ran upstairs and get a blanket to cover me to avoid of hearing that loud sound and i sweat like a pig. haha. seriously.


even the bunga api that we used to have during july. i love to see it but i hate to hear it.


stop talking about the bunga api and badil.


and now i'm sitting here all alone not that alone =.='' i'm with my brother. he didn't talk that much like me. i'm talkative and all i do is talk. hah. boboy seriously love football so much. it runs in a blood my father loves football too. and the way he knows everything about football even a piece of it ask him.he'll answer it. man!! he's a football freak!! and tadi he was so happy when the chelsea scored. boy your sister loves manchester so stop making fun of it. =.=''


i'll upload his photo soon. he looks much like my father.


bye people.
muahs.


with love,
zaii

hi everyone :D



amat's home today :D i mean it was totally surprised.

i started my day waking up at 2.30pm today. gawd idk why has gotten into me i can't sleep earlier these past few days or should i say these past few weeks o.O'' haha. i have to rush because the boyfriend is going to pick me up. i didn't even see my mumy today :S at three he picked me up and went straight to his home. you see i only took 30mins to get ready. gahh!! like what 15mins for shower and 15mins to get myself done.



after that i just stayed at his home til sungkai then we as in amat, alai, sam, din, fadil, alai mizzan, me and the boyriend went to gadong to fetch qilah. since we've been missing gadong so much. haha. so we hang out there for a while. and for sure i've seen different type of people. man, gadong was so crowded tadi.



then we went to McD because amat want to buy mcFlurry after that went to pantai jerudong and now i'm home. i was bored plg sigh. but ATLEAST we have something to do. rather than doing nothing.



anyways i have a great time with the boyfriend today we talked about stuff today lets just keep it hush here i don't want to mention it here. hehe. na~~ its just about our life i mean our childhood life. i wonder why everytime if i go with him i mean just two of us. we always talk about our childhood time and sometimes i find it hilarious. hehe. and we was like in two different world and now we're in love. hehe.


bah bah thats all.
good night people.


with love,
zaii

happy birthday to Nesa(dean's gf) god bless you with longevity :D

my day? lets make it short and simple here. BORED!!! we stayed all night at home. because we didn't have any idea to go where and we're totally broke :S
this evening we went to kubur babahlong(my uncle) then we went to stadium to buy some food for our sungkai.

then then then we stayed at home and i'm all bored. sigh. the boyfriend went back home around 1am but before that we went to kadai runcit to buy cigar. hehs. then his cousin called to treat us at kianggeh but then its too late udah. sheesshh.. why didn't he call us earlier tadi so we have something to do.

bh bh people thats all.

with love,
zaii

okay. i upload some old photos that i kept since last year.

i love this one because we're in green:D

i miss this friends. i mean this hapiness where did it go? accept one of the guy sj i don't miss. my friend you-know-him
awhhhh~~ we're the perfect couple there. teehee =.=''
randomness

i miss this hapiness where does it go? it's all gone. this pictures was taken at empire beach. actually we didn't really have a plan to wear the same colour of t's since some of us like me and the boyfriend adib and alai. others i forced them to wear it haha.

awh i miss it so much. except you-know-who(to my friends only) they knew it so much. hehs.

my day? uh lame. my sister knocking on my door so hard. i said "aahh.." i didn't hear it actually what on earth she's talking about because all i think was sleep. i need to sleep man. i sleep at 5-ish in the morning. kali she txt me because she knew it thats the only way that can wake me up. she text me 'ka, boboy sakit dada' i was lke rushing to go down stairs and i see boboy crying udah. fuh...

i meet my boyfriend at 9pm because he got things to do. sigh. then we as in din, sam, alai, fadil, me and the boyfriend went to huaho bunut.. by the time we arrived the shop has closed. haha. then we went to bandar just hang out there. to find some fresh air. hehe. then they went lepak to my house because brunei is so small and we don't have any idea to go where since its late already. but i was lucky to be bruneian. an i thank god because i was born in brunei since brunei is a peace country. i love brunei:D

they went home at 2am. hehe.

ok people bye.

with love,

zaii

today? this and that. pfft. just got back home from pantai jerudong. as i told yaa... i'm addicted to pantai seriously addicted. but today i didn't bring them. drng yang bawa :D thanx guys. ilobyouh!! O.O.

actually i'm trying real hard to forget all this "thing" that keep on messing with my mind. i really tried. but then it always pop into my brain and start thinking til it ruins my mood.

owh yes. i read some of the blogs which marked as my favourite blogs. teehee.. there are some uninvited person who tagged them in a bad way in their blog. well people you shouldn't do that. this is our blog, respect us for who we are. we bloggers didn't want this to happen. i experienced it once too. but i deleted it already. we need your respects. hmm. though i'm new in this kind of thing. and i realise that some of my post like you know using false words and maybe some part of my post can make others feels angry. but hey its just a blog. i didn't mean to do that its just my emotional. some of the bloggers know right. and about my other last post, i've posted that picture. i know i shouldn't do that IF only she didn't start it first :D to the spam-ers don't do that. its mean. like seriously mean.


back to the story; hmm i didn't go anywhere today just stayed at home all day. i'm trying to be a goodgirl here guys. haha. =.='' except at night. because we all bored. mcm i'm getting bored udah main cs. haha. i don't really have "the skill" lagi. hehs.


anyhoos, school holiday has started already. i don't feel the aura of the holiday anymore. aku sudah puas cuti :D
i miss school ba~~ :S if aku karas hati kan masuk technical it wouldn't be like this. my aim is going to the technical but mumy didn't agree afraid that i'm struggling there. and honestly speaking i'm more struggling in pte. *white flag. but i'm trying my best to go to the uni. i don't want to waste 2years of time just like that. AMIN.


owh man i get too emotional today. T_T. haha.

bah thats all for today.

with love,
zaii

beach :D

my day? was fine~~ i woke up at 11.50 and i read my text message it was from my boyfriend. he texted me that he'll come late. o.O" so not a good news. i showered at four in the morning. all night i tought that ok if sayang come i'm all done and i don't have to rush everything. and now. na~ah~ and that makes me upset. but after all i think hmm.. ok he's studying how can i be so stupid. i get angry and i didn't think about him. sigh. sorry love. again i made a stupid mistakes. cobaan again. hfft. tsk tsk.

and my boyfriend trying to pujuk me and bring me to pantai. hmm :D how can i be that weak. i'm not a super girl na~ah. awal2 jual mahal. haha. then we went to pantai at four and went back 5.50pm its a serious shitt we went back home in rush afraid that we'll be late for sungkai. but since mumy and my siblings reak their fast at Ayamku then i decide to break my fast at my boyfriend's crib. just both of us and his brother too.

at night we played CS as usual. hmm. then went back home and now i'm doing nothing i'm exhausted because i just finished cleaning up the tv room and the kitchen too. =.=''

awh by the way 12 more days :D man i get too old this time i'm 19 years old :S

ok thats all people. itss time to sleep its 3.40am right now. :D

bye.
with love,
zaii

exhausted

nothing much i want to say. hmm as usual!!! i woke up at 12pm i hardly can hear my boyfriend calling me: the sign of he's arrived udah. hehe. sorry love. o.O'' hehe. yayai too, she knock my door so hard and i pretend that i didn't hear it because i feel so sleepy and i got a headache. so you know how it feels when someone knocking on your door and keep on knocking and knocking. i feel like screaming until yayai said "kaka!! abang juden datang." gila i woke up selajur and told yayai to ask my boyfriend to come in and i take a bath laju2. haha ssshh.. :D

then when i went downstairs :( sayang tidur. sorry sy~~ umm then we went to soon lee since mumy went there because i need to begambar passport size for the application form. i'm exhausted plus the weather is so hot and i can't stand much longer *tergugat iman ku* hehe. but i tried to think positve all i think is dugaan time puasa ne. hehe :D

then i went to lambak to search for my leaving certificate and shit i've lost it. maybe its on sayang's folder kali. haha. man how can i be so clumsy.hehe.

after sungkai; mumy went so rajin today ya changed the living room punya position. note: i hate this part of hari raya. sibuk plus tiring but its fun though.hehe.
and we don't bake this year mumy malas bali oven o.O''
but before that me and mumy and matin too see through our photo in my pc's folder named my family. i can see that mumy is trying not to cry infront of us. i seriously know that mumy miss daddy so much. and i pretty much know that mumy still cannot accept the fact that he's leaving us in a bad way. all i can do is sigh. actually me too i cannot accept the fact that he's leaving us with nothing. i admit that i miss him but after all he did was hurting me and the others so bad that makes me hate you somtimes. sigh. anyways i love you babah. though sometimes i hate you i still can't erase you in my heart.

after that we went jalan tosearch for my jeans ada size but i don't really like it. sigh.
i end my self here people:D

goodnight

with love,
zaii

12.14am

its 12.14am in the morning. i'm counting days. two more weeks. two more weeks to go for my birthday haha. hmm i don't do much thing today :D i woke up at 2PM haha. because i sleep at 5am. sigh. i can't sleep all night. i whine.

back to the story, i woke up the mandi then turun bwah buat popia:D for hari raya. semangat. i'm exhausted. i don't know what i did i do today and now i end up tiring. sigh.

my boyfriend as usual break his fast at my home since his parents went to Miri. at night as usual we played CS with my brother and the others and my boyfriend too.

umm. actually i don't feel like blogging right now. sigh.

ok people bye.

with love,
zaii

hi~~

i just got back from home from pantai jerudong with my boyfriend and friends. our purpose to go there is for relaxing since they are tired pasal usai cucul kami. thanx friends especially sam and fadil hehe.

anyways before sungkai we went to pantai also since we've got nothing better to do hehe :D me and my boyfriend and alai had our sungkai dinner at KTM jerudong with my boyfriend's family.
opinion for the food: super delicious and its worth. hehe.

then we kumpul at my home kan usai cucul hehe.

i feel like relaxing today and i forget everything that had happend to me this lately. sighs.
thanks baby. i love you so much.

and as usual :D i'm all alone in the tv room. waiting for sahur. hehe. i'm totally bored right now. sigh.

anyways mumy get me an application form for kristal astro because i feel like working and because i need money desperately hehe. nadadeh. to fill my time saja.

i don't have mood to write anyways. sigh.

goodnight people.


with love,
zaii

:S

as usual to kill our time before sungkai me and my boyfriend went to his crib then we had our sungkai at our home since my sister, yayai tell me that mumy masak nyaman. i can't help it anymore. hehe. and at night as usual went shopping again with mumy tapi bali cucul and yoghurt

sigh. and as usual TOO i heard some bad news again. what do you want from me again after accusing me with all that bullshit stuff. okay maybe i said something bad behind YOU because i can stand with you and all i said are true none of it was fake and bullshit. let me highlight it again NONE OF IT. and FYI i never mark you as a bad person in my life. until then this person came and..... it became worst. you and i was like strangers that never know each other.

and i don't know until when this problem is going to end. and i don't know why this problem is getting worst. i don't know what had happened to you.

owh you!! i mean the other you. stop talking bad about my sister when you don't know anything about her. ahh they still can fucking remember the day us had big2 quarell with the one yg we hate. siapa yang being aggresive. and now.. your defending on him and telling someone that you don't even know. ugh i hate you so much man.

this problem is concentrated to me TO ME. eversince the tragedy had happened.. and you the guy don't be SETAHU when you don't even know what is the problem. okayyy!!!!

i end up my self mentally here

with love,
zaii

Finally

finally, i've changed my layout :D i like it though its simple. i love it. hehe.
and finally too me and my boyfriend played Counterstrike today duh~~ seriously i'm addicted to it. shooting and killing and knifing and boming :D *kirai

owh anyways my family and i and my boyfriend too had our sungkai dinner at my granny's homey :) thanx mamawa for the great food you cooked. i love it. however my granny wasn't there because they have to go to our cousins home. *spoiled.

i spend all day at my boyfriend's crib just to kill our time before sungkai. -- supaya inda kelaparan ;) i don't know what happened to my tummy it can't stop growling today damn it. well its a "cobaan" pulang. o.O

And i can't stop hearing badnews saja. i can't stand much longer anymore.
sigh.. why i can't be happy just for a moment. :S

owh anyhoos to my friend, qeel. happy birthday to you. wish you all the best. i love you girll.

i end my self with a smile here. :)

with love,
zaii

quality time.

i've been happy this lately :D not that really happy. Maybe because i really had a great quality time with mumy. since its been a while udah i haven't done it. sigh. and its like a release.hffftt...

we didn't go anywhere this evening. ada lah at night sj. we, mumy, adik2 and my boyfriend too went to lof to order some cakes for hari raya and bought some food. i bought bag jua for hari raya and its cheap it only cost about $11.90 well the original price $20.90 plg. i don't want that expensive branded bag. jara ku. i only use it once in a year. hehs.

I'm exhausted. pfft. i wanted to upload some pictures pulang but i'm too tired. i get all covered this ramadhan :D hah. sigh. its been a while i hear us laughing together. sigh.

i had a conversation with kidah this afternoon. i miss you girllll. ada i txt you tu k when tni sungkai together gether keh. love you babe. hugs.

with love,
zaii

today i got nothing much to do just go jalan2 with mumy, adik2 and my boyfriend :D
and today mumy pinjam amah. and she's from vietnam. and i don't understand each of her words. haha. sian pulang. she said this o.o bunut.(sounds in nose) haha.it means huaho bunut. well i couldn't stand much longer pulang if payah kan communicate.. well she's fine and rajin too..

anyways i missed playing CS today :( because me and my boyfriend have to send the amah home at o.o bunut.:D sigh. apakan skadar. hehe.

anyways the questions is still on my head is why they have to do this to me.
i hate the way ya cover cerita god damn it.
i love it.*round of applause*

sigh. well, i don't really want to think about it seriously.
i got lots of thing to do.

i miss school anyways. its been a while since aku school. sigh

i got nothing better to do right now. i'm all alone in this tv room. semua sleep udah except fer me.
sigh.

anyways i've been surveying love poems in internet last night because as usual baby, i got nothing better to do haha. some part ada yg aku suka some na~ah~ hehe.

goodnight people :D

-much love to give, much pain to keep- :D

wth love,
zaii

i end up bad in their eyes. i'm trying to help. avoiding you whining in shortage of money. but, well i end up like this. i don't understand why. "aku jua yang jahat atu"
pandai cover cerita ah.. *kirai.
i'm refering this to one person only.
the person that i believe in my life stab me from behind.
how could you do this to
how could you didn't appreciate me.

you told them i'm the one who force them.
its you whining arah ku. ITS YOU. how can i make it highlight lagi. ITS YOU,YOU,YOU!!

people, i learn my mistakes from this.
don't help anyone when you couldn't help for yourself.
i learn my lesson now.

i only have my family(siblings & mumy) and my boo in my life.
i need a mirror i guess :D
i end with a smirk here :D


with love,
zaii

ever experience :D

hehe. today its the first time ever ever ever aku naik perahu tambang with mumy, adik2 and my boyfriend haha its cool and siuk.
hehe :D but hujan and it is still siuk. hehe.

and now i'm all alone :S

i just recieved an email from mumy about the date converter and i find this cool;

my boo's birthday--20/10/1987-26 Safar 1408
my birthday------- 29/09/1989-27 Safar 1410
our anniversary----01/05/2003-28 Safar 1424

besusun semua. love it :D

the different year nya sja..

its cool :D:D:D

i just can't believe it. haha. over. *kirai

i love you my baby boo
i always miss you
though we've met everyday.

with love,
zaii

sigh its 3.39am right now

i can't sleep..

and right now i'm watching oasis. solat terawih di Mekah.

i want to go there. if only i have a chance :')

mumy told us about history of nabi and tafsir of Al-Quran and hikmat-hikmat ayat2 al-quran

*sayu hati ku. sigh.

my brain is pack with all mumy cakap.

i'm feelin' sad right now.

and i feel like crying.

with love,
zaii

did i miss something in my life?

my topic of this blog sounds emo.
i'm whining right now.
i feel uncomfortable these few days. i don't know why and better don't ask me why.

i just got back home from gadong.

and today me and the family had our sungkai at my grandparent's home. :D

anyways my birthday is coming up soon. haha. batah plg lagi. i'm counting days udah.

i'm blank.

totally blank

and i don't know what to do.

i love you my boo. hugs*


with love,
zaii

happy birthday alai matin

here i want to say happy 11th birthday to alai matin :D

wish you all the best and "sehat-sehat selalu" hehe.

i love you.

anyways i miss blogging yesterday duh~~

yesterday me and my boo had our sungkai dinner di mall

we don't have plan kan sungkai luar

since bibie txt me to buy my own food cause numy inda masak

i prefer sungkai luar. hehs :D

our new car vios sudah keluar today :D

congrats mumy :D

i miss my boo so much though i meet him like everyday.

but still i'm missing him like hell!!

baby you are the one for me

you gave me everything that i could never ask for more

i love you with all my life

i love you and i love you so much

hugs*

with love,

zaiii

selamat berpuasa people

selamat berpuasa people :D

xoxo

with love,
zaii

random :D

hi there :D

i've missed blogging like 2days udah hehe :D

the day before yesterday, we all went to serasa it was fun we played volleyball and football.

me and my boo collecting shells. i know its kinda classic but I like it though :)

and we ride motor si padul it was fun!! seriuosly! haha. thanx padul. i love you :D

and yesterday, we had a bbq. and so-called "wet party" hehe.:D
we get all wet after the bbq's over!! haha :D
but one of my friends get frustrated again whom his name should not be mention in this blog.
friend, you should be strong and be brave. you're a MAN. we love you.

anyways i didn't took photo last night because i was busy!! aha

okay bye!!

with love,
zaii

i hate you so much

sigh~~



kinda feelin' whinin' right now!!



i hate u father! i hate you!



you are the person that i really hate in this whole wide world!!!


and i hate your sad-filthy-slut to!!! *very


how could you do this to us?


we are your daughter.


i hate you mohaimin bin hj kamis


sorry i have to mention your name.


i hate you. like hell.


my suggestion; you and your slut should go to hell.


get me!!!

asss!! :S

i was being too emotional last night. :S sorry. and i think my last post was too personal :S

i am sseriously on a emotional rollercoaster :(

i didn't do much thing today i just sleep alot. sigh~~

and now i'm at my boo's crib. doing nothing. well i'm blogging pulang duh uh~~

kindly, i'm blank plg ne. tomorrow is a BIG BIG day.

man, i'm kinda whining right now. *break.

just had my dinner with them. hehe.

sayang; studying and reading out loud for his exam tomorrow.

goodluck baby i love you. mmwahs. :D

gahh!! i got nothing better to do.

i'm bored.

totally bored :S

sigh :S

anyways, tadi kami liat gambar lama2.. it was funny and i can remember at that time how on

earth we found that photo are so cool. :D haha.

anywys i find it hard to think of a topic for this post hehe :D

okay thats all for tonight.

with love,
zaii xoxo

i miss you:'(

Dear my blog,

i feel like getting emo here, like seriously emo!

i don't know whether this is too private to write in this blog but i don't want this problem burden me anymore. :S

As you guys know puasa is getting nearer like what five more days kali.

Honestly speaking, i'm in dilemma. Should i be happy or in the other way?

I miss every single thing about Ramadhan that i used to have three years back.

Babah,

how could you do this to us?

How could you ruined this smile in our face?

how could you make us cry out loud?

we had been through this sadness for years

and yet it didn't cross your mind to realize how precious we are.

Our world turns dark when you run away.

Where are you when your baby need you?

The success that i achieve are for you and mumy.

you leave us in vain.

And that makes me hate you even more

And i couldn't/won't remember in what ways you makes us smile.

I have to admit this,

I miss you.

Bah, we deserve a better life.

I miss the noise that we used to have before sungkai,

I still can remember the position that we used to have in the dining room,

I miss waiting for you after raya prayer in the morning,

'salam' you and mumy.

And i miss the kiss that you used to give us.

I can't help anymore,

I can't feel the real smile that draws in my face before,

i have to be strong for adik-adik

and i have to pretend that i'm happy when i'm not.

But Bah,

in this stage we are fine without you i guess.

syg, i feel like screaming right now sigh :S

this both picture was taken like what 3 years ago.

Good Charlotte- emotionless

Hey Dad,

I'm writing to you,

not to tell you that I still hate you.

Just to ask you how you feel

and how we fell apart,

how this fell apart.

Are you happy out there in this great wide world?

Do you think about your sons?

Do you miss your little girl?

When you lay your head down,

How do you sleep at night?

Do you even wonder if we're alright?

but we're alright,

We're alright...

Its been a long hard road without you by my side.

Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried?

You broke my mother's heart,

You broke your children for life.

Its not okay,but we're alright.

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes,

but Those are just a long lost memory of mine.

I spent so many years learning how to survive,

now I'm writing just to let you know I'm still alive.

The days I spent socold,

so hungry,

We're full of hate,

I was so angry

The scars run deep inside this tatooed body,

Theres things I'll take to my grave,

But I'm Okay, I'm Okay.

Its been a long hard road without you by my side

Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried

You broke my mother's heart

You broke your children for life

Its not okay,but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But those are just a long lost memory of mine,

Now I'm writing just to let you know im still alive,

And I'm still alive.

and Sometimes I forgive Yeah,

and this time,

I'll admit,

That I miss you,

Said I miss you

Its been a long hard road without you by my side

Why weren't you there all the nights that we cried

You broke my mother's heart

You broke your children for life

Its not okay,but we're alright

I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes

But Those are just a long lost memory of mine,

now im writing to just let you know im still alive

And sometimes I forgive,and this time

,I'll admit,

That I miss you,I miss you,

Hey Dad...

them.need.rehab :)

Dear blog :D,

hehe.. well lately ane my friends seriouly need a rehab :D or so we called it "therapy". one of my friends whom should not be mention the name on this blog had been through a serious problem in love lationship :S and now the doctor says that he need the "psycho therapy" so he have to meet psychiatrist like once a week i guess.

honestly speaking, i've been through in this situation but not in love matter. i need a rehab too anyways :D and if i need a rehab i just go to the beach to make a therapy :D seriously it works. and to make him happy last night, me and my boo planned to bring them to the beach last night. so tadi we went to the beach and we were like so happy i guess. and i've never seen him as happier as tadi before ane. and sam stop menagur aku dmsn okeh. you're sitting next to me asss!!!!!

anyways we were like planning to have a bbq rah my boyfriend's house this saturday before puasa plg tu. so we need to collect money to buy the equipment and foods. duh uh~~~ okay thats all for now, selamat malam dunia :D here are some photos;

us
and us:D
him driving:)
me and nabil


with love,
zaii

still sick~~`

i don't know where to start and i missed blogging yesterday because i can't upload the photo hehe :D anyways i'm still sick. gawd. i hate it so much. especially the flu gahh!!! anyways what did i did yesterday ?? hanging out with 64 kali haha.. daa~~ its my routine. and we went to wasai too (AGAIN) its fun tho. hehe. then at night we went to netcom to play cs. plus amat treat us again McFlurry. thanx amat. we love u :D and apa lagi ahh. and i want to say goodluck di penanjung. and qilahh sabar...... hehe..

today?? what happened ?? emm i didn't do much thing today because i slept about 13hours haha. labih tidur!!

the 64's
yayai, fidz, lie.in.done
the jz's :D
same, yayai, fids ans lie.in.done
same eating McFlurry
amat!!

the McFlurry
MattQeel
udah jua ku upload ne antah ehh