HAD A TWO AND A HALF DAYS OFF :D 

LOVE IT TO BITS. ITS BEEN A WHILE DIDN'T SPEND TIME WITH THE LOVE ONE. WHEN I HAVE A TIME HE DON'T.WHEN HE HAVE A TIME I DON'T.SIGH.

BOUGHT EVERYTHING FOR RAYA ALREADY. LAST MINUTE SHOPPING. I KNOW ITS NOT A GOOD IDEA. BUT YEA. AS LONG AS I HAVE SOMETHING THOUGH I DON'T REALLY FEEL LIKE RAYA AT ALL. ITS JUST PART OF ME I CAN'T LET GO. RAYA EQUALS TO SHOPPING. EHEH.

ANYWAYS, I MISS EVERYTHING BACK THEN. THE SCHOOL LIFE. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL AND STUDY. I JUST DON'T KNOW IF MY BRAIN STILL WANTS TO STUDY OR NOT. SIGH. 

AND I SUCK AT DRIVING MANUALS. I HATE IT YOU KNOW. THE TEACHER SELALU MARAH AKU =.="
SABAR SAJA. :D

INSYALLAH I'LL PASS MY TEST. :D

BAH I'M OFF TO BED.

NIGHTY NIGHT.

LOVE,
ZAII

HI, ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I UPDATE THIS BLOG. THERE'S A LOT OF THINGS HAD HAPPENED THE PAST FEW WEEKS, MONTHS I GUESS. LOVE, FRIENDS, HATERS, WORK, LIFE. 

BEFORE I START, JUST WANNA SAY. HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIM INCLUDING ME. I JUST HAVE A LOT OF FREE TIME TODAY.. LYING ON MY BED DOING NOTHING. I WATCHED THREE MOVIES. MOVIE MARATHON LAH TU. :D

SO FEW DAYS BEFORE PUASA WE WENT TO AL'S PARTY. THE PARTY WAS AWESOME. FASHIONISTA IS THE THEMES. BUT YEA, I DON'T KNOW IF I GET THE RIGHT DRESS CODE. LALALA. :D
ANYWAYS THANKS AL FOR INVITING US. LOVE YOU MUCH. 


ME AND FIFFI HANGED OUT WITH MUQSIT AFTER THE PARTY. GOSSIPING. HAHA. SO HIS FRIENDS CALLED HIM THE GOSSIP GUY. NOT COOL. :D


WENT TO MIRI WITH MY FRIENDS AND BOYFRIEND LAST MONTH. IT WAS A FUN DAY TRIP.
GUYS, DO IT AGAIN!!!


SO 29 MORE DAYS TO RAYA. I DON'T REALLY GET THE FEELING OF IT ANYMORE. ENTAH. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY. I DON'T REALLY FEEL ENTHUSIASTIC LAGI.

SIGH. AND GUESS WHAT. I HAVEN'T PREPARE EVERYTHING. LIKE KAINS FOR RAYA. SHOES, BAGS, CAKE, CLEANING THE HOUSE. I DON'T KNOW. I JUST DON'T FEEL ITS COMING SOON. 

OH I WATCHED SALT WITH JUDEN. IT WAS AN AWESOME MOVIE. EXCEPT THE ENDING PART. YEA YEA YEA.. I TELL EVERYONE ABOUT IT.. WHEN I'M NOT SATISFIED I'LL MOCK. BIG DEAL SANGAT!


OH OH... GUESS WHAT I'M IN THE PROCESS OF TAKING A LEGAL DRIVING LICENSE. HEHE :D

EM BAH I'M OUT.. I DON'T WANNA CHECK MY POST LGI. SO SORRY IF ADA ANY ERRORS :D

LOVE
ZAII

 

defying gravity. I am.

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down

F.U

HI BLOG!

THESE PAST FEW DAYS OR MAYBE MONTHS PERHAPS, I HAVE THIS FEELING THAT I REALLY CAN'T GET IT OFF FROM MY SELF. GRUDGES, HATES, ANGRY, TRY TO KILL OTHERS, KEEP SWEARING TILL SOMEONE SAY STOP. 

I DON'T KNOW. I'M NOT HAPPY THIS LATELY. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF EVERYTHING. AND TODAY, I HEARD FROM SOMEONE WHO INDIRECTLY COMPLAINED ABOUT MY WORKING SKILLS. I MIGHT SUCK AT WORK BUT YOU DON'T KNOW ME. SERIOUSLY. WHEN I FEEL LIKE KILLING, I'LL KILL. SLOWLY AND SMOOTHLY I WANT YOU TO FEEL THE PAIN INCH BY INCH. SOUNDS PSYCHO BUT YEA THIS IS ME. ACCEPT ME THE WAY I AM.

I'M SICK AND TIRED WITH ALL THE DRAMAS THAT I'VE BEEN THROUGH. YOU MAKE ME HATE YOU EACH AND EVERYTIME I SEE YOUR FACE. I DON'T KNOW. YOUR INNOCENT LOOKS MAKES ME HATE YOU. YOU ARE THE WORST EVIL THAT I'VE SEEN IN MY WHOLE LIFE.  

ALL OF YOUR WORDS ARE BULLSHIT. SERIOUSLY. GO BACK TO YOUR NEST, WHEN YOU WAKE UP, SEE THE WORLD WITH YOUR EYES OPEN WIDELY AND CLEARLY. DON'T SAY THE WORLD ISN'T FAIR. IT IS FAIR CAUSE ITS ROUND. ITS JUST THAT ITS NOT MY TURN YET. TIMES FLY. SO YEA BE IT. AKU SABAR! BUT DON'T PUSH ME! I HAVE LIMITS. 

ZAII

...AND STILL..

I STAND UP FOR YOU. I'LL FIGHT FOR MY LIFE FOR YOU. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHY IT HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS. MY LIFE IS IN AN AWFUL MESS. I REMAIN SILENT. 

I STAND STILL BY YOUR SIDE TO PROTECT YOU. YET, I DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING CHANGE. I'M TRYING TO BE A SUPERWOMAN TO YOU. BUT IT DOESN'T WORK AT ALL. 

I SACRIFICE EACH AND EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE. STILL IT DOESN'T WORTH ANYTHING TO YOU TO SEE I'M STILL EXIST. 

BEHIND THESE SMILES, BEHIND THE LAUGHTER THERE'S TEARS. TOO MUCH BURDEN I CARRY. 
BUT TO SEE YOU SMILE I FEEL HAPPY. 

I ACT STRONG WHEN I'M NOT. THIS EGO TOLD ME TO DO SO.

I STAND ON MY OWN WITH MY TWO FEET ON THE GROUND. AND STILL YOU DIDN'T SEE ME. I AM INVISIBLE TO YOU. SIGH.

HIT ME, HATE ME, PUT THE BLAME ON ME AND I WILL ALWAYS STILL LOVE YOU LIKE I LOVE YOU BEFORE AND AFTER AND YES, FOREVER. 

I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH.


LOVE,
ZAII
  

SO, MY CURRENT OBSESSION ARE. EHM.

FIRST IS;

YEA~

I KNOW.. GLEE.. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT I THINK THIS IS THE BEST DRAMA SERIES EVER AND I REALLY CAN'T WAIT WHATS HAPPENING NEXT. I'M GOING INSANE ABOUT THIS SERIES. :D

SO SECOND WILL BE;

AHUH.. IRON MAN 2. I FOUND THIS CERITA IS COOL. AND I MADE MYSELF THINK THAT HE'S A SUPERHERO DUH~

YOU MAY CALL ME LAME. BUT I DON'T CARE. I HAVE MY OWN LIFE. YOU CALL ME LAME I'VE GOT SOMETHING FOR YOU "GET A LIFE AND YEA FUCK YOU"

ERR. NO OFFEND :D

OH THERE'S ANOTHER ONE;

YES~ ERR.. 

I FEEL LIKE A NERD OR GEEK. BUT ITS BEEN A WHILE I DIDN'T FEEL THE OBSESSION LIKE THIS. I BET MASA SCHOOL TIME SAJA. 

BUT HEY, I LOVE BEING MY SELF. ATLEAST AKU HONEST :D

LOVE,
ZAII

my 7th anniversary ♥

BABY, HAPPY 7TH ANNIVERSARY♥. THROUGH THE GOOD AND BAD TIMES, THROUGH THE LAUGH AND THE SMILE, THROUGH THE HAPPINESS AND SORROW. YOU WERE ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME. I LOVE YOU. THIS SEVEN YEARS OF BEING WITH YOU, I NEVER FEEL BORED. LOVING YOU MORE AND MORE EACH DAY MAKES MY LIFE HAPPIER AND I GREW STRONGER. 


WHEN MY HEART WAS IN FRAGILE YOU WERE THERE FOR ME TO WRAP UP MY HEART SO THAT I WON'T BREAK MY HEART.

LIFE MUST BE TOUGHER WITHOUT YOU. 

I LOVE YOU BABY, I ALWAYS DO. TILL DEATH DO US APART.♥



For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me♥


LOVE,
ZAII 

AKU MENTAL TODAY. LIKE TO THE MAX. THE MAN BITCH OR THE DICK HIT MY TEMPER TO THE MAXIMUM POINT. SO MY ADVISE TO HIM WOULD BE. IF YOU THINK I DIDN'T WORK MY ASS OFF. AND IF YOU THINK I WORK VERY SLOW LIKE A SNAIL. SO MOVE ON. FIND SOMEONE BETTER THAN ME. WHEN YOU INTERVIEW THEM ASK THEM TO HAVE A 100M MARATHON, THE ONE WHO WIN WILL GET THE JOB. 

DON'T YOU KNOW HOW IS IT FEELS LIKE WHEN ALL THE ROCKS ARE FALLING ON YOU. THAT'S WHAT YOU DID TO ME. SORRY BUT I CURSE YOU HOPE YOU ARE MUCH MUCH MORE STRESS-ER ARAH YOUR NEW WORK. I REALLY-REALLY PRAY FOR THAT. 

AKU TAU. AKU MEMANG JAHAT. YOU GIVE ME A SHIT I GIVE YOU A BULLSHIT. YOU WANNA PLAY WITH ME, I'LL PLAY WITH YOU TOO. WHAT? YOU'RE MEAN. OKAY I CAN BE MORE MEANER THAN YOU. SO BACK OFF! 

I CAN ACCEPT WHAT YOU'VE SAID TO ME, I KNOW I WOULD NOT TAKE IT SERIOUSLY. ITS JUST THAT I THINK YOU HAVE NO FUCKING BRAIN TO THINK AND NO FUCKING EYES TO SEE. YOU HAVE 2PAIRS OF EYES AND STILL YOU CANNOT SEE WHO DO THEIR WORK AND WHO DON'T. 

OH LETS JUST SAY.. GET AN EYE JOB YOU MOFO! 


I HATE IT WHEN I FEEL UNAPPRECIATED, SERIOUSLY I DO. YOU SAY SOMETHING BAD TO ME I DON'T MIND. BUT WHEN YOU DIDN'T APPRECIATE ME. ONE WORD. GOODBYE. *SNAP 


I HOPE YOU'RE NOT HAPPY WITH YOUR NEW WORK NANTI SAME LIKE I FEEL RIGHT NOW. I WISH I COULD HIRE SOMEONE WHO HAVE THE MURDERING LICENSE SO THAT I COULD KILL YOU.


BACK OFF AND FUCK YOU.


I FUCKING HATE YOU. 




SINCERELY,
YOUR WORST NIGHTMARE CLERK.

 

DEAR,

I ADMIT THAT I REALLY MISS YOU, I KNOW MY EGO HOLD ME BACK NOT TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I MISS YOU. ITS BEEN FOUR YEARS SINCE YOU LEFT. AND I NEVER TALK TO YOU AGAIN. THOSE PEAK TIMES, I FELT VERY FRAGILE AND INSECURE.


LOSING YOU IS LIKE LOSING SOMETHING PRECIOUS IN YOUR LIFE. YOU USED TO BE MY SUPERMAN. BUT WHY IS IT NOW YOU TURNED TO VILLAINS. 


TO KNOW THAT YOU STILL REMEMBER MY FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPINGS I FEEL SO GLAD, AT LEAST AT HEART I KNOW YOU STILL LOVE ME. 


I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW, I'M OKAY HERE WITHOUT YOU THOUGH I MISS YOU. 

YOU USED TO BE MY SAVIOR. WHY NOW YOU TEAR MY HEART INTO PIECES. 


BECAUSE OF YOU, MY WORST FEAR IS LOSING SOMEONE ELSE AGAIN. YOU LEAVE ME IN VAIN.

IT HURTS ME SO MUCH, WHEN YOU WALKED AWAY. I'M MAD BUT THERE'S NOTHING ELSE I CAN SAY. 


I PRETEND MY SELF TO BE STRONG WHEN I'M NOT.  I SAY I HATE YOU WHEN I DIDN'T MEAN IT AT ALL.


I'M SORRY DADDY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT NOTHING CAN CHANGE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

LOVE,
YOUR DAUGHTER.

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone that I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You will always be you always will be the girl
In my life for all times

 

Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
Yes it is 

You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the girl in my life

Never gonna go a day without you
Fills me up just thinking of you
I'll never go a day without my mama

Yes you are

song for mama-boyz II men. love you mama.

HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

LOVE,

ZAII

 

not a productive day.

I'm bored. Sitting here watching the others gambling. Not a real gambling. Aku pun main big two.

well, my plan doesn't work tadi. pasal aku kan buat composition arah aku punya leave application form. cuz the dick ckp bisai2 rah ku.

So, i don't play sarcastic tadi.

But 1 thing that made me go insane tadi cause, all of a sudden the dick ask me to volunteer for the golf something. mental ku. I wear baju kurung. And i think i stinks the whole day.

So, i don't do my job very well. Buset.

Anyhoos, queen of my heart's birthday is coming up soon. Happy birthday mama.

love you. Though we're not that close like before. But i will always love u.

So here's the photo what we've been doing since tadi. 

I know. its like we had a real gambling haha. well, its been a while since aku cemani. guess kami berapa urang saja. emm. 5 person altogether. hehe. i found this picture is cool. i think i can make a poster for this photo. hehe. 

well actually we're not doing something productive pulang. but hey, why not. its once in a while saja kami cemani i guess =.=" 

p/s saya sayang sahabat-sahabat handai ku sekalian. :D
 

LOVE,
ZAII

MY BOSSES ARE DICK*SMIRK*

HI

TADI AKU TEXT SAMA FIFFI. MY BOSS(THE BITCH) YELLING AT THEM AKU APPLY CUTI WITH REASON "PERSONAL MATTER" I DON'T FEEL MAD AT ALL. ESUK AKU BUAT KARANGAN DI LEAVE APPLICATION KU OKEH! SCREW YOUR BRAIN AND YOUR THOUGHTS. 

OH, THIS LYRICS KAN NGAM FOR HER;

"I HATE MY JOB, MY BOSS IS A DICK,
I DON'T GET PAID NEARLY ENOUGH, 
TO PUT UP ALL HER SHIT" 

BOSS, YOU'RE A PREGNANT WOMAN. YOU SHOULD BE CAREFUL ENOUGH SAYING THINGS. IF PEOPLE HATE YOU THEY'LL SWEAR YOU FROM HEAD TO TOE. MAYBE EVEN THE BABY INSIDE OF YOUR "PERANAKAN" (INDA KU TAU APA ENGLISHNYA WAH)!!

I SOUNDS MAD. YES I AM. TRYING TO BE COOL. BUT HEY. I HAVE MY OWN RIGHTS TO HAVE CUTI BILA-BILA MASA KU MAU.

HAVING LUNCH TOGETHER JADI ISSUE? GAWD. I'M NOT IN A SCHOOL ANYMORE. YOU DON'T WANNA BE MY TEACHER, I TELL YOU. 


I WONDER WHY SOME PEOPLE WANTS TO KISS DRNG PUNYA ASS. SIUK KAH JADI ASS KISSER ANE? 


POKOKNYA ALL MY BOSS IS A DICK. WELL SOME OF EM PLG.


SOON IT'LL BE ANOTHER DICK ARAH KAMI. OH MY WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE KAMI PUNYA SUPERVISOR. 


I'M TRYING TO LOVE MY JOB. BUT IT SEEMS THAT INDA KU DAPAT BAH. I ONLY LOVE THE PEOPLE YG ADA DISANA. WHICH IS NOT MY BOSS.


I'M SICK AND TIRED OF MY JOB. HANDLING ONE ISSUE TO ANOTHER. THAT'S WHAT I HATE ABOUT IT. WHEN YOU WORK HARD AND THE OTHERS GOT CREDIT. IT REALLY SUCKS ME OUT. 


SO AS FIFFI SAID, IN CONCLUSION I WON'T BE THAT HARDWORKING ANYMORE. BUT YET STILL I CAN'T KEEP MY PROMISE. I DON'T KNOW WHY. =.="


BAH. UDAH TAH.


P/S AKU MENTAL.


LOVE,
ZAII

i heart you. and i always do.

TIME AFTER TIME, DAY BY DAY I SEE YOU CHANGING AND FADING AWAY. I CLOSED MY EYES AND I SHUT MY MOUTH. WHY NOW? WHY? YOU REALIZED THAT ME TOO FADING AWAY FROM YOU. WAS IT ME THE ONE WHO'S AVOIDING YOU? 

SINCE WHEN WE TALK ABOUT FEELINGS? YOU HURT ME. I IGNORE. AS IF THAT NOTHING HAPPENED BEFORE. BECAUSE I REMEMBER THAT WE ARE FRIENDS FOREVER.


THE TIME I WASTED. I COULD DO NOTHING MUCH BUT DISAPPOINTED. SIGH.

WHY NOW, YOU REALIZED THAT WE'RE NOT THAT CLOSE ANYMORE. 


I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOU. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?

THOSE TIMES THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH. I FEEL LIKE NOTHING BUT WASTED. 
THOSE TIMES THAT WE SHARE THE LAUGHTER AND TEARS BEFORE HAS TURNED INTO ASHES.

THE PROMISES WE'VE MADE HAD BROKEN INTO PIECES. WHERE'S THE MEANING OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP? WHY IS IT TURNED INTO HATRED?

YOU. THE NAUGHTIEST, THE CRAZIEST, THE NOISIEST? WHERE IS IT GONE? 
I CAN'T SEE YOU ANYMORE. THE ONLY THING THAT I CAN SEE IS THE SILENT YOU. THE MELLOW YOU.THE SORROW YOU. WHERE'S THE HAPPINESS? WHERE'S THE LAUGHTER? I SEE NOTHING. I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE PUTS A BLINDFOLD ON ME AND I HARDLY CAN SEE YOU. I HARDLY RECOGNIZE YOU. 

PEOPLE AROUND YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU. ITS JUST THAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU FELT DISAPPOINTED THE SAME WAY AS I DO. AND WE DON'T WANT YOU TO DROWN INTO THE "DEEP OCEAN" BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU. DON'T BLAME ON ANYONE ELSE CAUSE I BELIEVE ITS YOU.

SORRY.I LOVE YOU. AND YES I ALWAYS DO.

LOVE,
ZAII

confession part II :D

I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. I THANK GOD THAT I FOUND THIS GUY. HE CAN UNDERSTAND ME FOR WHO I AM. I THANK GOD HE'S NOT THE KING CONTROL. 


FOR BETTER OR WORSE I'LL ALWAYS LOVE HIM. NO MATTER HOW HARSH WE ARE. \m/ 

I LOVE THIS GUY. HE NEVER SAY NO. WHEN I SAY I WANNA BE WITH MY FRIENDS. HE NEVER SAY NO TO ME ACCEPT IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG THAT CAN CHANGE THE WHOLE THING. 


THIS GUY TEACH ME HOW TO BE STRONG. THIS GUY DON'T WANNA LET ME DOWN. HE ALWAYS FIND A THOUSAND WAY TO MAKE ME SMILE. (OR MAYBE I'M THE CLOWN =.=")


I LOVE YOU BABY, AND I WILL ALWAYS DO.


THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING ME. AND THANK YOU FOR SUPPORTING ME. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. 


LOVE,
ZAII

the boredom strikes again.

• BORED.
• SYG KERJA.
• MY POCKET'S EMPTY.
• SLEEPLESS NIGHT.
• FEELS LIKE IN A NO-WHERE ISLAND.
• MY SISTERS ACTING SO WEIRD. SHE'S ANNOYING.
• WANNA WATCH A MOVIE BUT TOO BAD I'M LAZY
• HUNGRY? NO. I JUST EAT MY BRUNCH
• TIKI RESORT? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO NOW.
• FACEBOOK? GETTING BORED OF IT.
• YOU TUBE? HELL NO.
• BEACH? YES PLEASE. VERY MUCH INDEED.
• MONEY. AHUH. I WANT. 
• ASK MUMMY FOR KACHINGS. I'LL BE DEAD.
• LONER. LOSER ME. 
• MISSING MY FRIENDS.
• MISSING MY SAYANG.
• MC DONALD PLEASE. MC CHICKEN PLEASE.
• SUSHI. YESS.
• STEAKS. YES.
• WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING? NO IDEA.
• WORK? SUCKS.
• BORING SUNDAY.
• LYING FLAT ON MY SOFA. WELL I'M NOT FLAT. *ROLLS EYE*
• WANTS A DRIVING LICENSE SO BADLY. BUT. TOO MUCH THINGS TO DO TOO LITTLE MONEY I HAVE.
• NEW EYE MAKE UP. I'M GETTING BORED OF MY OLD ONE. 
• TOMORROW FIRST THING FIRST WHEN I RECEIVE MY SALARY. I WANT MC DONALD.
• NEED A NEW WEDGE. RUNNING OUT OF SHOES. T-SHIRTS. PANTS. DRESS. SKIRTS. (AS IF THAT I WEAR SKIRTS) =.="
• WELL I HAVE AN IDEA. I SHOULD CLEAN MY ROOM. *BIG SMILE* BUT. ME? LAZY.
• BAH I'M OFF :D

LOVE, LOVE, LOVE;
ZAII

random. again. bored. sigh.

ME AND FIFFI HAD A JOBLESS NIGHT. DRAMA-QUEENING ON MSN. *FAINTS* HAHA. 

AND SHE'S SAID THAT "WE'RE THE WORK OF ART" LOL.

I STAYED AT HOME ON A SATURDAY NIGHT? THAT'S ODD. LOL. NAH~ I'M JUST BROKE. :D

BUT IT'S WORTH IT TO STAY AT HOME RATHER THAN SPENDING YOUR MONEY TO SOMETHING YG INDA WORTH IT. WAIT. *ROLLS EYE* AS IF. LOL.

CAN'T WAIT FOR PAYDAY. I NEED A NEW CAMERA. PLEASE. AND FIFFI ALWAYS KEEP ON BUGGING ME TO BUY THE WATERPROOF CAMERA SINCE MY LAST CAMERA GUGUR ARAH PANTAI. *ROLLS EYE AGAIN FI* :D

OKAY NOW I'M HUNGRY ITS LIKE 2.49AM. SLEEPOVER AGAIN AT JUDEN'S HOMEY. 

ANYWAYS, ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I GO TO THE BEACH. BUT TOO BAD SYG'S WORKING TOMORROW. SIGH. 


I REALIZE I TALK CRAP IN THIS POST. I JUST FEEL LIKE BLOGGING BUT THIS TIME I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ON EARTH THAT I'M WRITING ABOUT.


WELL AS FIFFI SAID "WE'RE THE WORK OF ART" HAHA. AS IF.


OUR SEVEN ANNIVERSARY IS COMING UP SOON. IN ONE MONTH TIME. SIGH. I DON'T HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT TO DO ON OUR ANNIVERSARY. LETS SAY IF WE'RE GOING TO HAVE A DINNER. FOR ME ITS A COMMON THING BECAUSE WE ALWAYS DO THAT. WHAT? IN A SPECIAL RESTAURANT. ALSO ITS A COMMON THING SINCE WE LOVE TO EAT. :D I WANNA TRY SOMETHING NEW. LAST YEAR WE CHECKED IN DI EMPIRE THIS TIME WHERE?


I WAS THINKING ABOUT KURAMAN ISLAND. SCUBA DIVING ON OUR ANNIVERSARY? YEAH ITS GOING TO BE FUN. HAD A SUNBURN ON OUR ANNIVERSARY? HAHA. NO WAY.


END OF MAY WE'RE GOING TO K.K SO LET ME JUST THINK TWICE ABOUT KURAMAN. SIGH. BUT I REALLY WANT IT PULANGGGG..



OH YES, 


MY NEW SUPERVISOR SUCKS. SHE WON'T PAY US FOR OUR OVERTIME? WTH? AS IF THAT THE HR DEDUCT YOUR SALARY TO PAY OURS. BUSET. BEETCH. I'M TIRED. I WORK HARD AND I FEEL VERY UNAPPRECIATED. SO BANAR BANAR I HAVE TO MOVE ON BEFORE ITS GETTING WORSE. I LOVE MY JOB BUT TOO BAD ITS JUST NOT FOR ME. I WORK HARD BUT PAY LESS. HOW ABOUT WORK LESS AND PAY MORE. LIKE SOMEONE WHOM THE NAME SHOULD NOT BE MENTION IN MY LING-LING'S :D

=.="

MISSING THEM FRIENDS SO MUCH. JASON. BALIK TAH WAH. MY LIFE WOULD BE IMPERFECT WITHOUT YOU. MBRIGALI *ROLLS EYE AGAIN* AWU SERIOUSLY I MISS YOU. INDA KU MANDGR LABANG MU. BUT DEFINITELY YOU'LL SHOUT AT ME IF KAU LIAT YOUR ROOM ON MONDAY :D
SORRY DETECTIVE MONK.


BAH BAH. I'M OFF TO BED. THE MORE I TYPE THE MORE I FEEL LIKE I'M WRITING A PIECE OF CRAP.

 

 JASON, YOUR MUMMY REPLACE YOU IN THIS PHOTO AH. :D

LOVE,
ZAII
 












 

when boredom strikes :P

S

SO THIS IS WHAT WE DID, LAST SATURDAY. EVER PLANS INDA SUCCESS, I END UP HANG OUT WITH FIFFI AND BF. SO FIFFI BRING THIS BOOK. THE SO CALLED "BIODATA BOOK" WHICH EVERYONE WANTS TO BE COOL IN IT. AND ALSO THE OWNER. HAHA.

BUT I LOVE FIFFI'S PAGE. SEE HOW COOL IS IT. I NEVER THOUGHT THAT SHE CAN BE THIS CREATIVE. HAHA.

THERE'S SOME PART THAT YOU WOULD LAUGH READING IT. BUT TOO BAD ITS NOT REALLY CLEAR. 

WELL I'VE BEEN THRU THIS BEFORE. WHO DOESN'T? AND I FOUND THIS FUN. I WISH I STILL HAVE THE BOOK. TOO BAD I DESTROYED IT. I DON'T KNOW WHY. MAYBE BECAUSE I THINK IT SUCKS. HAHA. I STILL REMEMBER THAT THE COLOUR OF THE BOOK IS WAY WAY TOO GREEN AND SHINY. AND I STICK A POSTER OF BACKSTREET BOYS AND WESTLIFE.WTH? HAHA. CRAPP..

BUT I STILL HAVE SOME BOOKS WHICH I THINK IT'S WORTH IT TO KEEP IT. FOR EXAMPLE
MY DIARY AND SOME BOOKS WHICH CONTAINS THE CONVERSATION OF ME AND JUDEN. 

SOMETIMES I BLUSHED WHEN I READ THOSE BOOKS. I FEEL LIKE "OH CHILDISH ME" LOL.

BUT I MISS OLD TIMES. WHO DOESN'T??

AWW, IT REMINDS ME OF MY SCHOOL LIFE.

ENOUGH OF THIS. I'LL UPDATE SOON. FIFFI GIVE ME IDEA. :D


LOVE,
ZAII

 <3

I

I MISS YOU SO MUCH

THANK YOU FOR BEING A HERO TO MY LIFE.


WHEN I'M IN YOUR ARM, I FEEL VERY SAFE AND SECURE.


I MISS THE TIME THAT WE USED TO HAVE TOGETHER.
I PROMISE I'LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU.

SIGH. 

WHEN I WAS DOWN, THE ONLY PERSON THAT I CAN LEAN ON IS YOU. YOU WIPE MY TEARS, YOU CLEAR MY SORROW.
YOU GIVE ME STRENGTH TO MOVE ON. 

YOU LIGHT MY DARKEST NIGHT. YOU GUIDE ME WALKING THROUGH THE PATH WITH FULL OF SPINES.


I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.


THANK YOU FOR BEING WITH ME THROUGH THE GOOD AND BAD TIMES. THANK YOU FOR PROTECTING ME. 

LOVE,
ZAII

fragile heart

A fragile heart was broken before
I don't think it could endure another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside of you
That's calling out to make you realize

That this new bond gives inspiration
To all who feel no love appeal no more
So how can I break this wall around you
That's aiding both our hearts to grow in pain

So forget your past, and we can dream tomorrow
Save our hearts for care and lovin too
It's hard I know, but oh
One thing for sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart

A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before

So don't let your past destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break my fragile heart

With all this fire that burns between us
There's so much to lose
Yet so much more to gain
And if I could, choose the world around me
The world I'd choose would all revolve around you
So help me complete the game inside me
And help to mend my fragile heart.

by-westlife.

aku tau aku emo :D

love,

zaii

part of the list =D

AND I THINK ITS PART OF MY OBSESSION NOW.I WONDER WOULD IT BE NICE IF I PUT "JAYZEE" ON THE NECKLACE. OH IT MUST BE CUTE. =D

THANKS TO FIFFI WHO SHOWED ME THIS NECKLACE. =.="


SO I'LL PUT THIS IN MY 2010 LIST =D


SYG, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. =D *HUG YOU*


XOXO


LOVE,
ZAII

 

LESSON OF THE DAY; APPRECIATE THE TIMES THAT WE HAVE FOR SOMEONE THAT WE LOVE.

LAST WEEK THE FIRST OF MARCH, MY BF'S FRIEND PASSED AWAY BECAUSE OF THE TRAGICAL ACCIDENT. I SIGH DEEPLY.

I CRIED FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK, BECAUSE I'VE BEEN STALKING HIS GF FACEBOOK PAGE. I KEEP ON CRYING AND SIGHING EVERYTIME I READ HER STATUS. TELLING OTHERS HOW MUCH HE MISS ALIF AND I BELIEVE SHE SUFFERED MUCH OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED TO HER.

I CRY EVERYTIME I LOG ON TO HER PAGE. I JUST CAN'T IMAGINE IF I'M IN HER SHOES. LOSING SOMEONE THAT REALLY PRECIOUS TO YOU IS LIKE YOU ARE LOSING THE WHOLE THING IN YOUR LIFE.

AND I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN TO ME. BUT IF I THINK TWICE. SOMEHOW AND SOMEDAY IT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU. THIS IS LIFE. WE'RE NOT LIVING IN THE HEREAFTER WORLD.

THIS WHOLE THING MAKE ME REALIZE THAT I HAVE TO APPRECIATE THE TIMES THAT WE HAVE TO BE WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE. AND THAT INCLUDES MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND MY BOYFRIEND. OR WHOEVER I LOVE.

THE SADDEST THING ABOUT THE STORY IS; 19 MORE DAYS TO THEIR 1ST ANNIVERSARY AND DAYS BEFORE HE'S GONE THEY WERE VERY CLOSE.

SIGH.

EVERSINCE THAT DAY, I BECAME PARANOID ABOUT EVERYTHING. AND HOPEFULLY I CAN GET RID OF IT.

i love you love.

its time for gLee :D

love,
zaii

SO THIS IS MY LATEST PICTURE WITH JUDEN, WHICH WE DIDN'T TAKE SO MUCH PICTURE LIKE WE USED TO. BECAUSE I HAVE A DOUBLE CHIN. LOL

SO YEA, ME, FIFFI, JASON AND JIDAH HAD THIS TALKED. AND ITS ALL ABOUT KARMA.

THEY DID THIS EVIL THING AFTER DATING SOMEONE AND THEY LEAVE THEIR DATE WITH QUESTION MARK ON THE DATE'S HEAD. SOUNDS FUNNY. FIFFI TOLD ME ABOUT HER WEIRDEST, LAMEST, WORST DATE EVER. I LAUGHED SO HARD. IN THE END SHE LEFT THIS MAN WITH QUESTION MARK.

SO TALKING ABOUT ME, LETS JUST REVERSE THIS THING AROUND. I AM THE VICTIM. BUT HEY ITS HISTORY. AND I REALIZE I FOUND SOMEONE BETTER, THAT REALLY CHANGE MY LIFE. I DON'T HAVE A LIFE BEFORE. I HAVE IT WHEN I MET HIM. SO I BELIEVE IN THIS PHRASE THAT JIDAH TOLD ME "IF YOU LOSE SOMETHING YOU WILL GAIN SOMETHING FROM IT" ITS MAKE SENSE KAN?

SO, I'M A BIT DISAGREE WITH THIS WHOLE THING CALLED DATE AND RUN OR FUCK AND RUN. IT REALLY HURT SOMEONE WHO IS VERY INNOCENCE.

IN CONCLUSION, THEY END UP BEING THE VICTIM OF LOVE, WHICH I BELIEVE ITS A KARMA THING. AND I BELIEVE KARMA IS A BAD BAD BITCH. YOU DO IT ONCE KARMA WILL GIVE YOU A DOUBLE PAY. WHICH IS NOT GIVING YOU ANY ADVANTAGES AT ALL.

OKAY NOW I'M STUCK, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WRITE ABOUT IT.

BUT THEN, WHAT THEY TOLD ME IS FUNNY. ESPECIALLY THE LAMEST DATE EVER "AWW, I LIKE YOUR FRINCH" HAHA. THAT WAS THE LAMEST JOKE I'VE EVER HEARD.

SO, YEA, I THANK GOD FOR GIVING ME A MAN WHO'S BEING SUCH A WONDERFUL MAN IN MY LIFE. THOUGH WE DON'T DO THE ACTUAL COUPLES DO. WE'RE GOING TO SAVE IT FOR OUR MARRIAGE. I ADMIT WE'RE VERY SELDOM BEING ROMANTIC WITH EACH OTHER, WHICH I CAN SEE THAT EVERYONE THINK THAT WE ARE THE WEIRDEST COUPLE EVER. BUT WHATEVER EVERYONE SAY SOMETHING BAD ABOUT US. I DON'T GIVE A DAMN AND I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT IT. AS LONG AS WE'RE HAPPY TOGETHER.

ERR, I DON'T TO WRITE TOO MUCH ON THIS POST. CAUSE I DON'T WANNA BE AN EMO. LOL.

WITH LOVE,
ZAII

BABY, I LOVE YOU :D
<3 <3

I THINK TODAY WE'RE HAVING A BAD DAY GOT A KICK ASS FROM MY OFFICER, I HAVE TO DESTROY LIKE 4BOOKS OF CHEQUES BECAUSE OF SOME ERRORS. SIGH. AND A FRIEND OF MINE WERE MAD AT ME AND ZUL BECAUSE OF SMALL THING. AND ZUL WAS LIKE, UDAH TAH WAH NGUSUT. THEN HE STARTED TO MAD AT US. YEA I AM A BIT DISAPPOINTED.

BEING ARROGANT AND SAID DON'T DARE ME MAN, I STILL HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS, YOU DON'T WANT US TO TALK FOR HOW LONG, ONE YEAR TWO YEARS OR PROBABLY FOREVER. HE SAID THIS TO ZUL, WHICH I BELIEVE THAT WHAT ZUL SAID DOESN'T MAKE PEOPLE FEEL OFFENDED AT ALL.

WELL I AGREE WITH HIS WORDS, LOSING A FRIEND ITS LIKE WE LOSE NOTHING. THE THING IS, IF YOU LOSE A GOOD FRIEND YOU LOSE I THINK SOME PART OF YOUR LIFE WHICH I THINK THAT YOUR LIFE IS IN MISERABLE AND INCOMPLETE.

IF THE ONLY REASON WHY HE'S MAD AT US IS JUST BECAUSE HE GOT PROBLEMS WITH HER LOVE LIFE OR FAMILY, THAT REALLY DOESN'T MAKE SENSE AT ALL.

EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PROBLEM, I HAVE MINE TOO. AND THERE WILL ALWAYS A WAY TO SOLVE THE PROBLEM OTHER THAN YELLING AT OTHERS WHICH KAMI LEFT UNSPOKEN AND QUESTION MARKS ON OUR HEAD.

WELL, I UNDERSTAND HUMAN DO MAKE MISTAKES, BUT THIS TIME ITS TOO MUCH. THIS IS THE FIRST TIME OF MY LIFE A FRIEND OF MINE YELLED AT US AND WE DON'T KNOW WHY.

AND I FOUND IT SO FUNNY PULANG BECAUSE IT IS TOO DRAMATIC YOU KNOW. HA HA.

FORGET ABOUT IT. SIGH. HOPE EVERYTHING GOES WELL TOMORROW.

LOVE,
ZAII

hip to the hop

I'M SURE LOTS AND LOTS OF PEOPLE KNOW THIS TWO PERSON VERY VERY WELL. TOO PHAT, WHO DON'T KNOW TOO PHAT, RAISE YOUR HAND? LOL.

TODAY, A FRIEND OF MINE TALK TO ME WITH HER RANDOM TALK. SUDDENLY SHE ASKED ME, ZAII, KAU PERNAH SUKA RAP OR HIP HOP. AND I STRAIGHTLY SAY, YES I DO. THEN I LAUGH.

THEN WE TALKED ABOUT, SPIT FIRE, ALIENWORKSHOP, WU-TANG, SEAN JOHN, MECCA. HAHA. I LAUGH TILL I CRY.

I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I KNEW HIP HOP VERY WELL WHEN TOO PHAT STARTED TO BECOME FAMOUS RAPPER WITH THE SONG ANAK AYAM OR WA-A-OW. START FROM THERE, I ALWAYS WANTED TO BUY A SNICKERS, BAGGY SHIRT AND EVERYTHING. BECAUSE I FOUND THAT THIS STUFF IS VERY VERY COOL. WHICH IS NOW A DAYS I FIND IT IS SO-NOT-A-COOL STUFF ANYMORE.

ONE THING THAT MAKE ME FEEL VERY STUPID IS, I'D RATHER MEMORIZE ALL OF THE HIP HOP AND RAP SONG RATHER THAN DOING MY HOMEWORK OR STUDYING FOR MY TEST AND EXAMS. HAHA. THAT'S THE STUPIDEST THING I'VE EVER MADE.

YES I STILL ADMIRE THE HIP HOP FASHION BUT I CAN SEE THAT IS SO NOT FOR ME.

THEN JUST NOW, ME AND JUDEN TALKED AGAIN ABOUT THE SAME THING. AND WE LAUGHED AND WE SAY, BUDUH JUA DULU ATU AH.

LAST TIME, MY ONLY IDOL IS THE ONE AND ONLY LIL' BOW WOW. BUT TOO BAD HE'S NOT LITTLE ANYMORE. LOL. I HAVE LOTS AND LOTS OF POSTER OF HIM, TOO PHAT, J.LO, JARULE, ASHANTI, EVERY HIP HOP, AND R&B ARTIST, YOU NAME IT I HAVE IT. IF I FOUND THAT I HAVEN'T GOT THE PICTURE OF THE PERSON, FOR SURE I'LL DOWNLOAD IT. SILLY ME, I'M WASTING MY PRINTER'S INK. =.="

BUT HEY, OLD TIMES ARE COOL. YA KNOW WHAT I'M SAYINNNN.

WHEN I WAS IN MY 8TH GRADE, ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE REALLY BRAVE, THEY HAVE THIS ONE PARTY AND SOME OF THE PARENTS DOESN'T ALLOW THEM TO GO BUT YET THEY STILL WANNA GO. YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DO? SNEAK OUT FROM THE HOUSE. AND I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO DIDN'T GO TO THE PARTY. KESIAN. AT THAT TIME, MY PARENTS ARE VERY STRICT. MAYBE THERE'S A GOOD THING BEHIND IT.

WHAT ELSE DID WE DO WHEN KAMI MASIH ANCING. HAHA.

OH YEA, I THOUGHT THAT PLAYING BASKETBALL IS THE COOLEST GAME EVER, BECAUSE WHEN HIP HOP IS ON TOP OF THE ROOF EVERYONE PLAY BASKETBALL. AND ME AND MY FRIENDS ARE WILLING TO PLAY AND WE EVER TOLD OUR PARENTS THAT WE'RE HAVING EXTRA CLASS ON FRIDAY, WHICH IS ACTUALLY INDA. LOL.

9TH GRADE, I MET THIS ONE GUY NAMED JUDEN, I FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM CAUSE I THOUGHT HE IS AWESOME. YEA HE IS AWESOME UNTIL NOW. :D LOVE YOU LOVE.

9TH GRADE, ALL I REMEMBER IS SKATE. SKATE AND SKATE. WHEN WE WAS IN OUR 9TH GRADE, JUDEN LOVES TO PLAY SKATE OR ROLLERBLADE. STILL HAVE THOSE BAGGY SHIRTS AND JEANS THAT HE WORE TO MEET ME.

OH MAN CAN I TURN BACK THE TIME? OF COURSE NOT. I WISH. EVERYONE WISH TO TURN BACK THE TIME.

ACTUALLY MY POST IS NOT ABOUT TOO PHAT. ITS ABOUT OUR LIFE THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH BEFORE, LAME BUT ACTUALLY FUNNY. UNCOOL BUT IT IS COOL. DULU TAPINYA AH.

BAH ENOUGH OF HIP HOP.

LOVE,
ZAII
PEACE Y'ALL (WTH?) LOL

SIGH,

WHERE SHOULD I START, YESTERDAY ME AND JUDEN HAD THIS SERIOUS TALK,LIKE VERY SERIOUS.

ALL OF A SUDDEN, HE'S TALKING ABOUT HIGHER COMMITMENT FOR US. GETTING ENGAGE, AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A TALK BUT HE'S SERIOUS.

I'M PRETTY ANXIOUS WHEN WE WERE SERIOUS ABOUT THIS TALK. I'M EXCITED ABOUT IT. SO WE PLAN THIS THING TO SAVE OUR MONEY, WE HAVE EIGHT MONTHS TO GO. PROBABLY, IF EVERYTHING GO SMOOTHLY.

HIGHER COMMITMENT IS SOMETHING HUGE RESPONSIBILITIES TO ME. LIKE ENORMOUS RESPONSIBILITIES. GIANT? WHAT ELSE? BIG BIG BIG.

I'M MENTALLY PREPARED FOR THIS BUT NOT PHYSICALLY, LIKE FINANCIAL STUFF. LOL

YEA, ALL THIS WHILE I ALWAYS WANT TO SPEND MY MONEY LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. BUT NOW I HAVE TO THINK TWICE FOR IT. WE NEED TO SAVE OUR MONEY FOR THIS. ENGAGE AND MARRIAGE IS NO NO PLAY STUFF.

OKAY NOW I'M SWEATING LIKE A PIG WHEN I WRITING THIS POST. HA HA.

BUT ONE THING, I'M REALLY HAPPY OF WHAT WE'VE TALKED YESTERDAY.

I CRIED HAPPILY BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP YESTERDAY. LIKE MY MIND IS GOING WHEEE..

AND I THOUGHT THAT ALL THIS WHILE THAT, THIS THING NEVER CROSS HIS MIND AT ALL, BUT I BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS WITH A REASON.

BUTTERFLIES EVERYWHERE,:D WITH GOD'S WILL, WE'LL GET ENGAGE. WE'RE HUMAN PLAN IS ALL WHAT WE CAN DO.

LOVE,
ZAII

Dream wedding and reality tv show addict

I JUST FINISHED WATCHING MY ALL TIME FAVORITE TV SHOW. KEEPING UP WITH THE KARDASHIANS. THE WEDDING PART. I'M LOVING IT. ITS LIKE MY DREAM WEDDING; PURPLE AND ROSES. IT REALLY CATCH MY HEART. ESPECIALLY KHLOE'S DIAMOND RING. :D

BUT I KNOW, DREAMS WON'T COME TRUE. WHO AM I TO DO A GREAT WEDDING JUST LIKE HER. BUT WHEN I WATCH IT, ITS LIKE A FAIRY TALE. WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN I REALIZE THAT, FAIRY TALE REALLY EXIST THOUGH FOR A DAY.

YEA, I KNOW. DREAMS ARE FREE SO DREAMS ON. SIGH. THINKING BACK OF THIS WHOLE SITUATION, THE ONLY LEFT IS DREAMS. HOPING FOR SOMETHING THAT IS SO IMPOSSIBLE. WHAT WAS I THINKING. SIGH. *INHALE AND EXHALE*

FORGET ABOUT THE DREAM WEDDING.

ITS ABOUT THE KARDASHIANS. I'M IN LOVE WITH THE REALITY TV SHOW. ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY ABOUT IT.

IT IS NOT ACTUALLY ABOUT THE WHOLE KARDASHIANS, ITS HOW THE LIVE THEIR LIVE. A HAPPY FAMILY I GUESS WHICH EVERYONE DREAM ABOUT IT. SIGH.

SERIOUSLY I GET SO JEALOUS WHEN MY FRIENDS SAYS THAT THEY NEED TO SPEND TIME WITH THEIR FAMILY AND EVERYTHING. SIGH. I HAVE NO LIFE. I MEAN I HAVE A LIFE BUT ITS TOO MISERABLE FOR ME. SIGH.

FORGET ABOUT IT. LETS JUST ACCEPT THESE FACT. WHICH I BELIEVE FACT REALLY HURT.

ITS OK

LOVE,
ZAII