SIGH,

WHERE SHOULD I START, YESTERDAY ME AND JUDEN HAD THIS SERIOUS TALK,LIKE VERY SERIOUS.

ALL OF A SUDDEN, HE'S TALKING ABOUT HIGHER COMMITMENT FOR US. GETTING ENGAGE, AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A TALK BUT HE'S SERIOUS.

I'M PRETTY ANXIOUS WHEN WE WERE SERIOUS ABOUT THIS TALK. I'M EXCITED ABOUT IT. SO WE PLAN THIS THING TO SAVE OUR MONEY, WE HAVE EIGHT MONTHS TO GO. PROBABLY, IF EVERYTHING GO SMOOTHLY.

HIGHER COMMITMENT IS SOMETHING HUGE RESPONSIBILITIES TO ME. LIKE ENORMOUS RESPONSIBILITIES. GIANT? WHAT ELSE? BIG BIG BIG.

I'M MENTALLY PREPARED FOR THIS BUT NOT PHYSICALLY, LIKE FINANCIAL STUFF. LOL

YEA, ALL THIS WHILE I ALWAYS WANT TO SPEND MY MONEY LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW. BUT NOW I HAVE TO THINK TWICE FOR IT. WE NEED TO SAVE OUR MONEY FOR THIS. ENGAGE AND MARRIAGE IS NO NO PLAY STUFF.

OKAY NOW I'M SWEATING LIKE A PIG WHEN I WRITING THIS POST. HA HA.

BUT ONE THING, I'M REALLY HAPPY OF WHAT WE'VE TALKED YESTERDAY.

I CRIED HAPPILY BEFORE I GO TO SLEEP YESTERDAY. LIKE MY MIND IS GOING WHEEE..

AND I THOUGHT THAT ALL THIS WHILE THAT, THIS THING NEVER CROSS HIS MIND AT ALL, BUT I BELIEVE EVERYTHING HAPPENS WITH A REASON.

BUTTERFLIES EVERYWHERE,:D WITH GOD'S WILL, WE'LL GET ENGAGE. WE'RE HUMAN PLAN IS ALL WHAT WE CAN DO.

LOVE,
ZAII