i heart you. and i always do.

TIME AFTER TIME, DAY BY DAY I SEE YOU CHANGING AND FADING AWAY. I CLOSED MY EYES AND I SHUT MY MOUTH. WHY NOW? WHY? YOU REALIZED THAT ME TOO FADING AWAY FROM YOU. WAS IT ME THE ONE WHO'S AVOIDING YOU? 

SINCE WHEN WE TALK ABOUT FEELINGS? YOU HURT ME. I IGNORE. AS IF THAT NOTHING HAPPENED BEFORE. BECAUSE I REMEMBER THAT WE ARE FRIENDS FOREVER.


THE TIME I WASTED. I COULD DO NOTHING MUCH BUT DISAPPOINTED. SIGH.

WHY NOW, YOU REALIZED THAT WE'RE NOT THAT CLOSE ANYMORE. 


I TRIED EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOU. BUT WHAT DID YOU DO?

THOSE TIMES THAT WE'VE BEEN THROUGH. I FEEL LIKE NOTHING BUT WASTED. 
THOSE TIMES THAT WE SHARE THE LAUGHTER AND TEARS BEFORE HAS TURNED INTO ASHES.

THE PROMISES WE'VE MADE HAD BROKEN INTO PIECES. WHERE'S THE MEANING OF TRUE FRIENDSHIP? WHY IS IT TURNED INTO HATRED?

YOU. THE NAUGHTIEST, THE CRAZIEST, THE NOISIEST? WHERE IS IT GONE? 
I CAN'T SEE YOU ANYMORE. THE ONLY THING THAT I CAN SEE IS THE SILENT YOU. THE MELLOW YOU.THE SORROW YOU. WHERE'S THE HAPPINESS? WHERE'S THE LAUGHTER? I SEE NOTHING. I FEEL LIKE SOMEONE PUTS A BLINDFOLD ON ME AND I HARDLY CAN SEE YOU. I HARDLY RECOGNIZE YOU. 

PEOPLE AROUND YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT YOU. ITS JUST THAT THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU FELT DISAPPOINTED THE SAME WAY AS I DO. AND WE DON'T WANT YOU TO DROWN INTO THE "DEEP OCEAN" BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU. DON'T BLAME ON ANYONE ELSE CAUSE I BELIEVE ITS YOU.

SORRY.I LOVE YOU. AND YES I ALWAYS DO.

LOVE,
ZAII